cOnFuSiOn

well my name is william collins but everyone calls me pila. I always thought that I never looked like a william. Im 17 years old and I live on what most people call Paradise .... but to me its like hell. Im stuck on a rock with no where to go and all the guys here are a******s and conceded and not even hot. lol . I want to get off of this rock and show the world what I'm made of. My goals are very vast and im about 90 percent sure that I won't reach them all. As far as occupations go I would like to become a tattoo artist, a writer, a chef, an art therapist, and maybe some short of activist. But the most important things to accomplish for me is finding someone to spend the rest of my life with, starting a family, meeting wonderful people and seing beutiful things and places and smile and live and laugh way more than I am right now because honestly I'm not happy with anything in my life right now it may sound a bit harsh or a bit like I'm craving some attention but actually I'm just being honest. I used to pretend to be someone I wasnt and pretend I was happy just to make other people happy but eventuall I just snapped and now the only person I live for is me! sounds kind of selfish but I have been pushed around soo long that I need to be selfish for once in my life to I'm now attempting to please myself instead of other people. I just started but already I feel better anyways anything else just ask me I'm not one to turn away friends I'm up for meeting new cool people soo dont be shy hit me up