Julio

17, gay, single, spanglish, hardcore gamer, hardware enthusiast, huge fan of the band Muse and the film The Matrix. Writing-wise, I love anything to do with conspiracies, horror, war and basically every grim, end-of-the-world topic there is.

I suffered severe clinical depression for two years (and no, I was not just a teenager dealing with hormones - I undertook professional treatment for as long as it lasted), which has impacted every aspect of my writing probably for ever. Just like the writing that I'm interested in, most of my own work is extremely grim, eerie, and tends to deal with topics such as insanity, self-hatred, paranoia, war, the end of the world, and so on.

I've received a few messages asking me about my depression, so I'll talk about it for a bit I guess. I've dealt with huge losses all my life - every few months a relative or friend has died. I had a traumatic childhood with a drunk father and a careless mother and later on I had to deal with the dementia and eventual death of my nan, which was when I 'snapped'. I was under intensive psychotherapeutic care for over two years and since then I haven't been the same. I tried killing myself twice and would have attempted it a third time, but I managed to slip out of my depression shortly before.

As you can probably tell, my depression has permeated my life and influenced all of my writing. I won't go into any further detail - and there's only one person who I'd feel comfortable talking with about it anyway. But basically, I'm more or less alright now, and even though my past has left a huge scar, I try to keep my head high as often as possible. I have a very close friend who cares for me now, and that's all I need to continue living, and not just existing.