ZoeSnow95

This is one of the first things I ever wrote about myself when I was probably around the age of 13. Enjoy, it all still rings true to this day.

my name is zoe i love animals i am up for almost anything im down to have fun and i don't care what anyone thinks about me. I'm me and i'm not changing for anyone. I'm straight forward with people so if you ask me a question i'll tell you the truth in less i decide to be sarcastic. I'm Zoe. One of the first things you should learn/know about me is that i'm a tough cookie to crack. I'm a total goofball. And when i talk i like to be animated. Haha :]. When it comes to me anything is possible. If i could be anything in the world i would be me. Just improved, so i could fly, walk through walls, do whatever the hell i wanted. And i would rule the world. I like to contradict myself. I will never admit i'm wrong, even when i am. I will just say something encouraging instead or change the subject. I am a b***h. But i'm also really nice... Sometimes. I don't like people who pretend to be what their not to get attention. I think its pathetic. I do not believe in god. But i don't look down on people who do. I am open minded. I am BISEXUAl. I'm sorry if you don't like that. Or if believe its not even possible. I hope that one day you will realize that ANYTHING is possible. I am a hypocrite. But at least i admit it. Its in my nature to be mean. Its how i keep my guard up. I like to be as solid as a rock. But believe me i have fallen to pieces many times before. If i truly upset someone or i do something "wrong" that makes someone upset, sad, angry, mad, fret full, etc. I feel bad about it. Sometimes i actually try to make up for it. I actually do care. Sometimes i just don't care enough. Sometimes you can read me like an open book. But sometimes i have a lock. I love nature. I like to go into the mountains and feel the energy and power being radiated around me. It makes me sick when i think of pollution. But i have never done anything about it. I would be a vegetarian, but meat tastes good. It makes me sick when i think of the poor little cow who died to bring me sustenance. But i realize that the animal is already dead. There is nothing i can do to save it now. So whats the point? Its not like i can DO anything to stop it. I just won't KILL a living being myself. When i talk i will either talk ALOT or just be in the background. When i get nervous i will either talk alot, breathe heavily, or GET IT OVER WITH. I will give anyone a chance to be my friend. But if i don't LIKE you i'm sorry, but i just don't. That doesn't mean i'm going to go talk s**t on you. I tell people my honest opinion, i don't go out and claim that you got pregnant because of your dad, or that you ware diapers. That is what people i don't like do. And when they say rude s**t about me. I'll tell them straight up to get a f*****g life. And I'll move on! I like people who are interesting. People who i can actually have a conversation with. But i also like shy people. People who you have to ask questions to and be patient with them. They make good friends. They can listen to me babble. Or i can just enjoy their company. I believe people have a soul. Something that manifests their body and keeps it running. I believe that it leaves when the body stops working. But i believe it doesn't go to heaven or hell. I believe that it is either reincarnated, or manifested somewhere else. I don't believe that when you die you die. There is nothing left of you. I have felt things close the me after they have died. And i have felt a soul leaving a body. And it didn't just disappeared. I don't pretend to be all knowing. I have much to learn and i am happy for the chance. I have pride. I am proud of myself and all of my accomplishments. I am glad that i am not a bottle blond air head. I am naturally blond. But i like my hair red. It just feels more like ME. And i am Zoe. I'm a smart idiot. I'm a real person. I have a heart. Even though sometimes it seems like i don't use it. I'm am patient. But i am also impatient. My eyes change color. They can be any shade of green, blue, gray, or they can be a mixture of all of them. I'm a mystery. I can be very childish. I still like Scooby Doo. But i hate SpongeBob. I wake get a bowl of cereal and go watch cartoons. But i don't do it in my pajama's. I can also be very mature. I'm a endless maze of thoughts and emotions. My friends and family mean everything to me. I would die without them. I have a couple of good friends and family that i would trust with my life. And those are the people i love. And i have some friends that i just like to hang out with. I like to give out compliments, and insults. One of the highest compliments you can get from me is that i enjoy you. Haha :]. And if i call you a slag or a c**t. Then you should know that i really really really dislike you. I always give someone a second chance. And i believe there are always two sides to a story. I have no idea why anyone would ever cheat. If you feel that unfullfilled or unsatisfied then tell the person. Don't go behind their back. I think that is one of the worst things you could ever do. You should just be straight forward with people. I have no idea why anyone would ever read all of this. Because i honestly don't think i'm "beautiful" i think i'm ok. I have been told i'm ugly before. I don't care what you think. But secretly i do. I don't want to live up to peoples expectations. I want to live up to my own. I want to surprise people and i don't want to be a stereotype. I want to be a unique indivdual. I don't want to be the "popular" person in school. I want to be the person stays out of the lime light and has a couple of really great friends. I don't want to be in the in crowd. I want to hang with the losers. The band geeks, the kids who get shoved in dumpsters. I want to be the person who goes to their high school reunion and no one remembers you besides your best friends and the people you were nice too. And when i go, I want to be really successful. I want to show people that i can make something out of myself. I want to prove that i am worth it. Because i know i am. I will be one of the most interesting people you will ever meet. And i'm glad. I want to make you remember the girl me. I want to be the girl who made you think. I want to be an unknown face that surprised you. I want to be the woman that made you feel special when you were down. I want to inspire you. I want to make you feel like you are unstopable. When i am happy you will know. When i am sad i will be boring. When i talk i will be animated i'm warning you now. I like to read. If I'm bored I'll lose myself in a good book. Most of the time its better than reality. I like to make up stories in my head. But i can never get them down on paper. I have many cool ideas. And i like to share them with people. But they have to be willing. If i could be anyone for a day i would be either Rob Dyrdek (He can do like anything he wants!), or myself just improved. I wish i could fly like a bird, and breath underwater like a fish, i want to lie in the tall grasses and just feel the cool breeze against my skin. I want to experiance life to the fullest. I want to jump off a cliff just for the rush. I want to travel the world. I want to be in a band and go on tour just to see what its like and to see if we could make it! I want to be a humming bird just to see if they get tired of all that flapping and moving... That would suck! I want to be a three year old for a day! I want to be president for a week just to see how bad i could f**k things up. I want to be a hippie, a nudist, a zombie, a ninja, a f*****g dude! Haha I want to experiance a million things just to see what it would be like. I want to be out going and adventurous. I want to save a life. I want to dominate the world. I want to own an island. They only cost a million dollars. :] Haha. I want to be a scientist. And an author. I want to be a tattoo artist and pierce people. And i want to be a f*****g photographer! I want to die fighting for something i care about. I want to fall in love... Again. I want to own a monkey. I want to have a HUGE Maine Coon (really big house cat). I want people to actually care. I want someone to actually read ALL of this. I mean every single word. That would seriously make my day. I want someone to believe in me even when I've stopped believing in myself. I want there to be world peace. And i want santa clause to be real. But you don't always get what you want. Thats why i love this world. Because when you actually do get something you want, it means something. I'll write more later kay? I just want to meet someone; someone that can smile & speak with their eyes. I just want to meet someone who wont jump the gun ahead of time, someone that can just appreciate the now. I'm not looking for a lover, I'm just waiting for a soul mate. I just think that that's someone worth meeting. someone that made me believe in faith and hope,someone so clueless of the radiancy of his thoughts and how important they've become,someone who thinks i don't look like everyone else,someone that i could be and create myself around,someone that would let me high and down,someone that im hungry for,someone that would let me run and feel sure,someone full of spirit,someone that extends his arms to the possibilities,someone that could be my strong friend and euphemistic lion, someone that is a lighted candle undearneath the darkest ocean,someone that would hold my feet to the ground and lift my soul closer to the sky someone that i call present from above.ungooglable people, shy socialites, celebs who have to explain they're famous, a buddhist, a f*****g Pokemon, a pshyco (besides me), Albert Einstein, the queen, an alien, an astronaut, a philosopher, an artist, established indie kids, a passionate person, a funny person, someone that inspires me, happiness, crazyness, anyone cool who isn't a judgemental piece of s**t. -sitting next to you with a smile, even though it's obvious there are a million other places you'd rather be, with a million of other people you'd rather have sitting next to you, you get to me and you know it. fighting with you is pointless, not because your right but because your so dead set on proving me otherwise. your the type that'll read and scrutinize everything i put out but never mention a word of it. your smart, but i think you trie to hard not to try, then again so do i. so i'll continue to live my life looking past your androidness, your worn out face, your i-don't-really-want-to-be-here-with-you-because i dont-really-love-you-but-i-want-you-to-think-i-love-you face. And your i'm to good to stay with you forever, i don't want to waste my time with you, and your i will love you in tell the end(my favortie!) tone. i like wasting my time on you, talking to someone that's actually happy to see me just isn't as fun. get me?.I love seeing new places, taking pictures! painting and drawing, playing my records, my ipod, staying up late and have a coversation that seems like 5 minutes but is actually hours long, taking walks, reading, v necks, adventures, hilarious people, baths, down to earth people, sleepovers, laughing, smiling, doodle-ing, sarcasm, 11:11, peach yogurt, strobe lights, animals, lip smackers, good memories, dreams, mascara, eyeliner, great clothes, hot topic, I HATE dresses!!! pictures, singing obnoxiously, traveling, solitaire, good friends, good music, popsicles, fish, iTunes, rain, mountains, conversations, sleeping, sunny days, latte's, swimming, pasta, kool aid, my family, writting, dr. pepper, blueberry muffins, arizona tea, mexican food, the 20s, 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s, nylon magazine, dresses, incense, california, necklaces, tights, skinny jeans, flip flops, arizona green tea, raspberry snapple, afternoon naps, walks, the beach, vitamin water,writing, books, music, the sound of the sea, blueberry white tea, black and red nail polish, Ireland, chalk, blue slushies, partying, art, being yourself, kindness, self respect, insanity, pretty days, rainy days, memories, deep thinking, old pictures, polaroids, photography, cinema, antiques, type writers, posters, good old music, camping, go-carting, good times, road trips, airports, downtown, forest, United Kingdom, NYC, the world, reasons to smile, filming, singing, dancing, playing, imagination, creativity, class, making lists, honesty, truth, holding hands, real hugs, true friendship, family, children, tattoos, randomness, happiness, freedom, wisdom, traveling, acoustic, classic things, caring, old school things, sunshines, atmosphere, farms, pigs, animal rights, pressed flowers, nature, environmental issues, peace, love, good feelings, good people, nice hair, beauty, side glances, laughing, walking around, confort, warmth, red tea, peanut butter, good company, new clothes, money, secrets, beauty, funny things, cuddling, being the first to wake up, catching clock when numbers repeat, talking, thoughtfulness, goodwill, joy, learning, listening, breathing, growing. Elias, Jessie(RIP). Mia, Jared. Good people, New friends, old friends, nice people, mean people, ugly people, cute people, all people, no people, cats, dogs, ferrets, evrything, and nothing, and living life.