Suicide Help. Forum I hate hiding

I hat this, the feelings of complete helplessness, wanting to find an answer, but the only one that makes sense is the permanent one.
Feeling hollow useless, unable to fit in anywhere because no one understands.No I don't have PTSD...I never went to combat, just a few fucked up places. Of course no one cares about the ones that feel the quilt of seeing others go and never given the chance to go.
Like I aid I'm useless.I don't know why I'm even saying this...I should just delete it.