Lady Lazarus.

'...And I picked on the whims of a thousand or more
Still pursuing the path that's been buried for years
All the dead wood from jungles and cities on fire
Can't replace or relate, can't release or repair
Take my hand and I'll show you what was and will be...'

Salut!
How are you?
I'm Jessica Secmezsoy-Urquhart.
cut me open and I'm made of blackjacks..though actually I'm made from fruit salad and know it...

I'm 18.
I live In Hamilton a scottish town with a personality disorder..sometimes I think I'm living in twin peaks but that would be too normal.
I look a bit like a badly drawn picture usually.


I'm part turkish part scottish like some weird Jigsaw covered in milk.
The scottish part manifests intself in my total bleak outlook on life,grumpiness,depressing nature and a love of drink/sugar.

The Turkish part manifests itself in my passionate personality,my love of jelly based sweets and my love of sherbet....and some other things...
I have aspergers syndrome otherwise know as matt smith syndrome and I'm pretty fucked up,pretty confused ,but I think my jigsaw will fall into place one day.
I like people who are sort of eccentric,goofy and true to themselves. That is all it takes for me to really like someone.

Humour is so important to me as a person and so If someone can just giggle and act childish with me I most likely love them forever.
I like sincere people and I'm usually the friend who doesn't get boundaries joke wise and ends up turning to see friends with bewildered expressions.

I love to walk especially in very scottish country places with the shadows dancing through the trees,nightingales singing and a bit of good company...If I ever get a bike my life will be perfect...I will call it sebastian and it shall be mine...
I'm a bit like a very weird boxing match inside where a biochemistry student is fighting a toddler who likes custard...

I can't wait to escape the shackles of my teenage years yet I miss being small when I could be as special as I currently am without getting asked if I'm "ok"...
I have a lust for life and like biscuits....basically that's all there is to me.

Inspiration to me includes everything from my life,my condition,films of every kind from a keaten/garbo film to a modern day indie flick,from post punk to glam,french literature to the romantic poets...
I believe that some things are meant to be beautiful...some words should be....others shouldn't...but there in lies their beauty...