http://www.writerscafe.org/thundercat13 The original writings of author smarie en-us Copyright 2013 Aresta Enterprise LLC 1371638260 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Ok everyone, sorry if you waste your time reading this but I need all of your help/advice. At school I really want to start a club. I want the club that I start to be a place where kids can come and have fun. So I want them to be able to play games, play music, sit and talk, and if they want they ca.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/1011708/               I'm usually the person who holds everything together. I'm the one who stays calm because if I panic then everyone else will too... but at this point I have no clue what to do. The happy girl that everyone loves to be.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/1001844/ From the time I wake up To the time I rest my head on my pillowLooks of disapproval is what I receive When love and approval is what I seekPeople say a family is supposed to love youCherish youTeach you Hold youCatch you when you fall…If that is so then.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/997777/ I'm sure that because of all the depressing material that I posted on here people may think I'm just another depressed teenager roaming the face of the Earth but I'm honestly not. I mean yeah I have problems but most teenagers (if not all) do. Problem #1... Homosexuality- In my family that is a.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/991472/ It's been a very long time since I have been active on this site, so here's a recap of my junior year.  My 11th grade year has by far been my best year in school... period! When I was a freshman it was like hell so at the end of the year I decided everyone would like me. Sophomore year I began .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/991455/ I'm going to use this as my journal because I have a lot of bottled up feelings and I need to get everything out. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/991445/ Oh my gosh!! Oh my gosh. I am losing my mind. For the last month Isaiah and I have been planning on going to the winter ball and now all of a sudden he finds out he has a 1.7 GPA. I am beyond pissed but I guess he didn’t know, if he did then he wouldn’t have asked me to go to the dance w.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/833205/ Ok so I’m supposed to be going to the winter ball with Isaiah in eight days and something just doesn’t feel right. He was supposed to get his ticket today because I got mine yesterday but he said the line was too long. Who knows maybe I am just stressing a little but too much because I w.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/833196/ I don’t even know how to describe the day I had today. In my Italian class I felt like Mrs. Glynn was targeting me. I know a lot of high school kids say that when they don’t like a teacher but I am really serious. I have known my Italian teacher for two years and she hasn’t changed.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/833179/ Right now it’s only about 9:40 but I just feel like writing. At about 12:00 I will be babysitting Spencer, Ashlee, and Alexis for a few hours while my mom and their mom finish Christmas shopping. Usually I wouldn’t want to watch them because Alexis is very disrespectful but I need more m.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/830480/ I haven’t written anything in a while but that’s because I have been so busy with school and other things. Today was an odd day and I had a math test (ugh!). The test was kind of easy, out of ten problems I knew how to do eight. After the test I wrote a little note to the teacher basical.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/830226/  Today was the first day back from the Thanksgiving break. At first I was really mad because I enjoyed my break and I didn’t want it to end. I had to go back to my old schedule which meant waking up at 5:00 am. When I woke up I was numb because I only got four hours of sleep. I have insom.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/828650/ One day I’ll lay me down asleep And no longer will I morn and weepThe pain will be overNo longer will I be constantly looking over my shoulderOh how I am yearning for that dayWhen with me she will no longer have her way Woke up in the morning, only eight years oldTrying to.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/828250/ Earlier this morning I was walking with my sister who by the way I can’t stand and we stopped to rest at this bus stop. While we were sitting on the bench these two females were talking about kids and why a lot of them are so messed up. I wanted to hear what they had to say so my sister and I .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/826888/ Ok so I have the money and I’m buying gifts. I’m buying Ashlee and Spencer a mobigo, Lexi a game for her leap pad, and Hannah two outfits. I’m buying Yuri a pair of yellow cleats, Nora an outfit, and Noiah a Hello Kitty necklace and some earrings. I bought Tristian a pair of shoes .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/826883/ I had the best Thanksgiving ever!! I swear I say that every year but that’s because I love being around my family. Not all my family was there but about fifty people all gathered at this one large house that was like in the mountains. It was great! One thing about my family is that everyone ov.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/826879/ Today my auntie and I took spencer, Ashlee, and Lexi to this place called Pump it up. Pump it Up is a place where kids can run around and play in jumpy houses. When I was younger it was one of my favorite places to go play. At first Spencer was a little scared but when he saw me running and playing .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/826878/ Finally!! Thanksgiving break is here. I have a week off of school plus two weekends, that’s like nine days away from school. I’m the kid who loves school and usually I would be panicking right now but I’m actually excited. I think because there has been so much going on at school a.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/826877/ Today was a wonderful day; God knows I love my odd days. In the morning I was with my friends as usual and we always have a blast. I actually had fun in my 3rd period class too, even if I had a math test. The teacher was getting annoyed with us because a few of us kept talking while we were doing cl.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/823269/ Right now I’m just trying to figure out my place at this school and like what I’m really supposed to do, or not do. When I was a freshman I had about seven true friends and those friends were willing to do anything for me. When I was a sophomore I met so many new people and I made it so .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822739/ If I had to describe today in one word I would use the word… interesting. My even days are always entertaining but today was just plain weird. When I got to school I realized that the usual group of kids I hang out with in the morning and I were all wearing pink. It was actually kind of funny.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822689/ This is so weird and I have no clue why I’m even thinking about this but I have noticed a lot of kids my age don’t really trust the teachers and adults in their lives. People say that when a student is having problems at school all they have to do is tell an adult. But what is the adult .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822390/ This is so weird and I have no clue why I’m even thinking about this but I have noticed a lot of kids my age don’t really trust the teachers and adults in their lives. People say that when a student is having problems at school all they have to do is tell an adult. But what is the adult .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822389/ I don’t know how to say this any other way so I’m just going to say it like this… this world is freaking crazy. So much happened today it’s ridiculous. First of all third period my teacher wasn’t there so we had a sub and the sub couldn’t teach us the math and we.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822310/ Oh my gosh, right now I am so tired. We’re getting our carpets cleaned so I had to move all the furniture into the kitchen area and then I had to move it out so I could get some water. Then it took my four hours to do my homework because I forced myself to do all of it.  I had homework in.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/822057/ I’m so freaking tired. Today I had to baby sit three kids, two three year olds and a six year old. I love watching kids but when they don’t listen to you and they constantly cry it takes a lot out of you. In the morning I was only watching my brother so my mom could go to this self-defen.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821971/ As I was walking down the street it was silent, too silent and it was foggy, way too foggy. I saw everyone but no one was able to see me, it was like I was a ghost. As I walked around unnoticed the weather changed and all the fog went away. As I continued my long walk I heard crying. I turned to my .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821937/ http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821884/ Today there was no school and believe me I was so happy. My phone starting going off at like 7:30 so I turned it off. I had to babysit my three year old brother (spencer) today and I must say I actually had fun. He may be only three but he is hilarious. For breakfast we had pancakes and for some str.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821581/ Ok so priorities priorities, I need to sort out my priorities. I need to stop the fights. I to mend the relationships and I have to do my homework then help Nae Nae with her homework. Ok so I have to make a list.1.)    Isaiah and Antwain keep fighting, I have to make sure they don&r.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821483/ Today I woke up with a good morning text from Isaiah, Antonisha, and Taima. That made me feel good I like it when my friends send me little texts or messages like that because they make me feel like I matter and like I make a difference in their lives. Anyway so at 7:30 a.m. I left my aunt’s h.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821448/ At my school we have even and odd day schedule and today was an odd day. 3rd period I had Geometry, 5th period I had U.S. history, and 7th period I had fundamental visual arts. While in math I was supposed to be doing the math work but instead I was more focused on the wonderful topic my friends and.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821439/ http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/821415/ First hitMy lip splitsEyes swellThis won’t end wellKicked in my kneeD****t pleaseJust let me beWhy are you doing this to me!They take my homework and rip itThey see my money so they steal itThey like my shoes so they take themIt’s one of me and many of them&ld.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/820980/ HeyI know it's hardBut I need you to rememberWhat doesn't kill youCan only make you strongerI know what you're going throughI know what you're feeling likeWash away that negativityCause everything will be alrightDon't let it stop youDon't let it hold you downKeep going stra.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/820979/ I had a nice time writing this. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/817270/ Usually I dont cuss in my poems... thats not really my style. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/810308/ I have no clue what the name of this poem should be http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/805413/ They say time heals everythingIf that’s true then when will I stop bleeding?CryingPrayingWhen will I stop pleading?I had a bright light in my eyesAnd you took that away from meEvery single time I criedAnd every single time you laughed in responseI don’t understand why y.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/802801/ Usually I’m the happiest child in the worldThe one who keeps the fun time goingBut right now I feel hopelessI feel like I am drowning Usually I’m the peacemakerBecause I know violence doesn’t solve anything But lately I’ve been acting really violentI hit .. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/802708/ Tonight I sit here Sitting on my bedThinking about deathThe gun is touching my headAnd my brain is counting down10, 9, 8My hands are sweatyMy hearts beating fastAnd the breeze from outside keeps making me shiverI finished the my letter and it’s in my pocketI have no more se.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/802700/ Suck it up, keep it inThat’s all I ever hearSmile and say “I’m fineI’m tired of living in fear  You make me hold everything inEven when I want to scream in painThe stress causes my bones to acheI feel like I’m going insane Tears fall.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/802695/ I remember when I used to get beat downBut thats not the definition of menowI fell off, but now I'm backI'm flying so high, theres no way I can see downIn everything I do, I pour my heart outI don't understand why people need to point my flaws outWhatever, it doesn't get to meWait that.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799970/ You threw me outYou left me in the dirtYou left me so burntI was black and burnedYou promised me you would stayAnd yet you're goneYou promisedyou would love meAnd yet you never show itWhats up with all the broken promisesYou promised me the perfect lifeAnd that life isnt honest.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799646/ I'm always sad and I'm always lonelyNo one was ever there to comfort meSo I wear a mask and it always has a smileThat way no one would ever know I was in denialEveryday I hide my feelings behind a lieNo one notices so they never ask whyI have a whole lot of friends, but still I'm lonely.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799074/ I remember how you were really never hereYou never told me to have no fearYou never told me to stay strongYou never sung me a happy songYou never payed attention to meI was always in pain and you never could seeI can barely remember your voiceYou never taught me to make the right choic.. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799068/ written two years ago http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799065/ written 2 years ago http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799060/ writen two years ago http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799055/ Something I wrote two years ago. http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/thundercat13/799051/