Look At Me

Look At Me

A Poem by ~ Czarina Iris ~

Look at me
What do you see?
A girl as happy
As can be

Look at me
What do you hear?
A voice that's filled
With laughter and cheer

But look closer
And you will find
There's so much more
That I must hide

Yes I laugh
And smile and beam
But things are never
What they seem

Behind closed doors
Is where I hide
And where I cry
And where I died

Yes I died
But you don't see
Just what it is
They've done to me

They make me cry
They make me hurt
They make me feel
I'm nothing but dirt

They yell and scream
They bang and shout
And all I know
Is I want out

I don't know how
And I don't know when
But I know then
I'll be me again

But for now
I've given up
I can do nothing
I've lost all hope

I want you to know
That whatever they say
It's nothing, I swear
But I'm not okay

© 2011 ~ Czarina Iris ~



Author's Note

~ Czarina Iris ~
This may seem like I'm wallowing in self-pity, I'm sorry. Not how I intended it to come out.
Things are home are just getting worse, mom was fired recently and is taking her frustration out on me. Everyday it's the same thing, I'll walk through the door after school and I'll get yelled at/lectured/blamed for something I didn't do. I'm sick of it. So finally today I stood up for myself and ended up being yelled at and blamed for all the troubles that we, as a family, are dealing with which in turn caused me to lock in my room. I cried for a good hour. I'm just fed up.
I don't know where, and I don't know how, but I need to get out of here and soon. I can't keep living this way...

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I'm a father of four children and two grand kids. I learn years ago better to be silence then negative. I know the feel and the emotion of this poem. Sometime when someone is being hard on you. Be silence and walk away. Make them worry and concern. Two pissed off people can't fix problems. I like the way you told the story. Some reflections can hide the truth. A excellent poem.
Coyote

Posted 5 Years Ago


How sad the write... and the 'notes' that go with it... the poem itself is put together very well, good flow and rhyme and the content a part of "today".
*bird*

Posted 5 Years Ago


I love this, very sad and so true all too often. If only others realised how their behaviour affects us.

Posted 6 Years Ago


I know EXACTLY how you feel. EXACTLY

Posted 6 Years Ago



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Added on September 12, 2011
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Tags: look, at, me, eva mace, self, pity, sadness, despair

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~ Czarina Iris ~
~ Czarina Iris ~

Where the sea meets the sky, Canada



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