What you don't know when your away

Just kind of getting out some built in emotion

That Aching feeling of loneliness

When you know you shouldn’t be in agony

Why am I all torn up inside

When I should be so happy

I am battered, bruised, burned, and busted

But never has he laid a foal hand on me

Has the feeling of being too busy made me feel so

Harmed, physically hit, cut, crushed and damaged

I am offended of myself and of him

And this pain in my mind makes me sad and regretful

I am completely happy with him

And yet these days of silence left me wounded

I keep wondering is it me

Am I to busy, did I do something wrong

Am I become another one of those girls who texts every minuet

Worried of the lose that hasn’t came

I’ll never be good enough

I am completely disfigured and ugly

But I can’t even say how hurt I am of the silence

Because when he returns, I become a sappy schoolgirl

The very thing I hate

I lost my pride and I am scared

Scared of the hurt that I am unready for

Because the distance is become more

I don’t think he means to make me bleed to cause me distress

He’s only ever wanted to see me happy

Which is only why I cry when he is away

But he hasn’t been around that much lately

To keep me happy and hiding the pain

I’m weak

 

Reviews

[Wolfwind Words]

It is always good to write it out. While, I think there could be many ways to look at this piece of ink. I'll just say that it is always good to remember that life is about finding a balance in all things. Sometimes, while two individuals may have balance on their own, together they may unintentionally imbalance the other. But you shouldn't consider yourself weak... That's self defeating and does neither part of a relationship equation any good.
Hope things smooth out and you can find the right balance needed.