Dear mother

this was written in a quick attempt to not bust down and go into depression x.x

Dear mom

I’m sorry I am not what you wanted me to be

I spent my whole life trying to make you proud and I realized it wasn’t a possibility

I know you worry and I know you love me

But it is to the point where it doesn’t matter

Because I can’t make you proud and that’s ok…

I know you don’t understand where I am going

And I don’t know where I am going either

But I love you and I want you to trust me

My life is my own and I need you to see that

I can’t say I have everything figured out

But neither do you

I am tired of hearing how life gets harder

No one wants to hear of how things get harder

When they already hate where they are at this very moment in life

I know life is a struggle and you want better for me than what you had

And you raised me well

Sure you think you made mistakes

But those mistakes are mine

And mine alone I want you to stop blaming yourself because

When I leave I don’t want you to be hurting anymore

I am growing up and I can’t be under your wing anymore

I know you want to protect me but you can’t anymore

You never really could

To be honest you made me feel in the wrong

In the wrong for wanting to be myself

And I deserve to be myself

And that is why I have to leave and face the world

And I know I will do things that make you hate me

And I know that you will probably never forgive me

But that’s ok

That’s ok because

I can never forgive myself for not being what you wanted either

~love your eldest daughter

Reviews

[The Analog Kid]

Very honest and I like the point of view. Not the usual whining poems on the subject.

[Orlando Furioso]

Ach, this is quite a read. I love the honesty and intelligence of it. And you perfectly capture how parental expectations and disappointment can damage a child. I have three children myself and read your poem with absolute attention, in part wondering what my infantry might say to me. I also thought that you mother would have much to be proud about in the way you express yourself. She might not like the message but, if she has a wise eye, she wld appreciate your wording skills.

[Whiskurz]

Wow.....This is dripping with pure emotion.....A fantastic write.....Whisk