Am I Still Not Good Enough?

Am I Still Not Good Enough?

A Poem by 1Disawsum
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What do i have to do, to be the perfect child, you've always wanted? *SECOND PLACE WINNER IN 'POEMS FOR THOUGHT' CONTEST AND THIRD IN THE 'GET MY ATTENTION' CONTEST* <3

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Am I still not good enough?
What do I have to do, 
To be the perfect child you've
Always wanted?

Am I still not the person you wanted?
How can I prove it to you,
That I am worth everything to you,
How do I do it?

Am I still the most hated person?
Why do I do what I do,
Begging with you, pleading with you,
When you won't listen anyway?

Am I still the hideous creature you said I was?
What do you see, in those deadly eyes?
A pitiful, pathetic child, 
Is that what you see?

Am I still not worth looking at?
I'm sorry I have no luck,
I'm sorry I was born the way I am.
I'm sorry for everything I've done!

Am I still the imperfect child you said I was,
All those long lost years ago?
What can I do, what can I say,
To keep me alive, for one more day?

Mummy, daddy, please listen to me!
I've changed, I've changed, i promise I have!
What do I do, to keep me alive,
For one more day?

© 2014 1Disawsum


Author's Note

1Disawsum
This is a story of child abuse, the child is screaming, the child is crying, but nobody hears.

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that was so innocent and beautifully written, well done

Posted 9 Years Ago


1Disawsum

9 Years Ago

thankyou! xx
Very powerful piece. Thank you so much for sharing this story with us.

Posted 9 Years Ago


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I feel bad for this child :( It is so sad to see parents who do not love or embrace their children :( Great job with this :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


1Disawsum

9 Years Ago

thankyou! This was me, I tried so hard to be perfect, but then I realised, nobody NEEDS to be 'perfe.. read more
Wow, love this poem, well done.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1Disawsum

9 Years Ago

thanks for the comment! :) xx
This is really good, sad, but I feel the story you tell with your words, I can't wait to read more of your writing. =)

Posted 9 Years Ago


1Disawsum

9 Years Ago

Thankyou for your comment, much appreciated! :D

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Tags: Abuse, trauma, experience

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1Disawsum

Sydney, New South Wales, Australia



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I'm sitting here behind a screen, Writing about my past like I don't care. Like it's in the past, And I'll never go back there again. But the truth of the matter right now, Is that every secon.. more..

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