The friends I wish I had

Anyone else notice how harder it is to make friends in high school than in elementary school? Or is that just me?

Why can't I sit at the lunch table with you?

I just want some friends. I have so few.

Is it something I said? Something I did?

Maybe it's because I act like such a kid.

Am I just an attenchion seeker.

You should know that I'm not a very good public speaker.

I don't have the confidence or the self-esteem.

I get so nervous, I just want to scream.

I have wanted a good friend for most of my life.

Someone to save me from worry or strife.

I've started talking to the friends in my head.

With my own thoughts to keep me company, I feel as delicate as a thread.

These friends that I seek,

are friends whom I wish to keep.

Someone to talk to when I'm feeling blue,

Or someone to just sit and listen while I would listen to you.

I can't remember how it started or where it's going,

But my feeble attempts to make friends are really slowing.

These few friends I have now are surely to last.

That is because these friends I have are all from the past.

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Well, what can you say about high school? Not a really pleasant time for many of us. But if you pay attention during these years you can learn things about yourself that will serve you well later on. Good luck.

[Chris Shaw]

I feel for you because I also had similar feelings when I was about 12. A difficult time anyway with all those raging hormones. Also I was quite shy. What changed things for me was joining a netball and hockey team. That started to make a difference. You have conveyed your emotions well in your lines. Your poem brought memories back which weren't all that happy. Persevere I say, it will change with time.

Chris