Not So Fine

What do you do when you feel like you're going crazy? But maybe it isn't that you feel it. What if it's real?

There are many names for that parasite that makes a lodging in your mind.

Some call it depression, some call it your problems, some merely refer to it as trying times.

But whatever it is that plagues your brain, remember it’s not a crime,

To be seen curled into a ball, clutching your head and crying.

I find myself doing that often because I cannot say

Exactly what are thoughts, even by the end of the day.

I pass everyone else with a standard, expected, “hey,”

But not once do I let them see the monster I keep at bay.

The monster inside of me, that turns day to night;

The thing that clouds my judgement so I cannot tell wrong from right

It drives me further over the edge with each of its vicious bites

To the point where my eyes sparkle with a sort of crazed light

So that when I scream in the mirror, I am afraid of what I’ll become--

Afraid that it will be the monster that will eventually be the one,

To triumph over me, and force me to succumb,

To the wave of inevitable madness that is all but to come.

Sometimes I wonder, if all of it is fake;

That it’s all in my mind so there’s nothing of it to make.

That to others, this problem is hardly a thought--merely a piece of cake.

Perhaps I am weak; surely, there must be some mistake?

But what had Dumbledore said to Harry at King’s Cross Station, when everything felt surreal?

He said, “Just because it’s in your mind,

It doesn’t mean it’s not real.”

So even when you’re not okay, remember, that’s completely fine.

Reviews

[Bleak_Darkness]

Oh my goodness, another amazing piece from you 5hade! Your writing in the form of poems have been fantastic! The rhyming, the execution, the depth and the thought that you have put in behind it all; just amazing! I am speechless and slowly running out of words to describe how great your works are! I like the dark undertones in this work, and how it feels so surreal in itself! And not to mention, referencing one of the greatest series of all time, Harry Potter, in this work! Keep this up!

[5hade5layer]

Thank you so much Bleak! Your comment always help improve my work!