When I'm Gone

Lay me down six feet under

Beside the only father I've ever known

Put me in my favorite red gown

You know the one, it matches my nails.

Run the comb through my hair, not that it needs it.

As you prepare to lay to rest the loneliest girl.

My friends may take any keepsake they wish

They deserve my things more than I ever did.

I know my third death is decades away and I'm okay with that.

But the first is done and the second soon to follow.

I finally won some peace.

Cry for me if it helps, though my final tears did me no good.

Know that I loved

Deeply and dearly

Each of you who shake yourselves in the shock of my absence.

I know the wonder of your minds:

Was he the cause of this, my tragedy?

No.

I did this because I saw no way out.

I knew I'd never be truly happy again.

The brief happiness I did know was stolen from me.

So lay me down six feet under by the only father I've ever known. 

Because I already see him,

Waiting for me like he always did.

And we walk hand in hand to our forever home.

Its about time.

Reviews

[Starting Over]

Kat don't kill yourself! It's Lacey. If you need me Facebook me text me talk to me!

[Kaitlin W. Blaylock]

Its just a piece formed out of my depression. I'm not going to initiate my first death, but if something happens to me, I'm done fighting. I appreciate your concern.

[With Each Raindrop Come..]

Im crying... im not gonna lie... I really am... Kaitlin... please... don't...