Forgetting

A Poem by Rachel

A beautiful day,
Windows rolled down,
Wind blowing my hair
But what I wish is for these emotions
To blow right out of me
And be left behind on this back road.
If only it worked that way,
The anger,
The pain,
The anxiety that sits in my solar plexus
All gone in an instant.
But I know, as life has taught me too many times,
That time eventually will give my relief.
But I live in a world that pushes for instant gratification,
I want,
I crave,
At this very instant, to erase it all.
She exposed all my wounds that were starting to scar.
And now they burn and itch
And I can't stop reliving the past
Where it all first formed.
Love that was only half given.
Love that came with strings and lines and
Mental disorders.
Was I just a fragment of your distorted reality?
Where you thought you knew how to love?
How to let me in?
But you didn't.
And here I am again,
Wishing to forget you,
Keep driving I tell myself,
Just keep driving.