All you have is love

Sometimes dark moments show you how to be your own light.

As life is wont to offer, I have experienced the ins and outs of the deepest darkness and came one desperate night many years ago to be sitting on the back stairs of my own home on Garfield Avenue in Salt Lake City trying to sequester myself for the powerful and frightening things that had been drawn to me. 

And maybe there comes a point in everyone’s life where they are faced with the threat of feeling so alone that they cannot do anything but look at it, wondering aloud to the universe while sitting on the carpeted steps in the back of their home, ‘what can I do? Please help me.” But that is where I was that night. And there is both a long story and a short story through the journey of its resolution and I’ll leave neither but will simply say that I sat down on the steps as one person, and got up from them as another. 

For on that very dark night, I came to understand that within the recesses and cavernous complexity of both experience and soul, there remains something within that eclipses all other losses. Because you may not receive all the things you believe you need to feel loved, but within you still lies the love you have to give for the beautiful and tender things upon this earth. And it is the Love you have to give that bestows warmth upon the world even as it nestles within to heal you when you most need it. 

So love your world. Love your earth. Love beautiful and tender things; bend down to hear them breathing with life, and find that place inside yourself to sit on the stairs and rise into the love you’ve always been.

 

Author's Note

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