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End of A Friendship

End of A Friendship

A Poem by AJadeLion
"

Words I could never say. I'm sorry.

"
I've tried to drop you from my life
Rather cowardly and selfish I'll admit
Even so
I can't quite say
That I'm truly sorry

You want to know why we aren't friends anymore
I don't want to explain
But here I am anyways

The truth is
Our friendship was toxic
Abusive
And I don't know
If you didn't know or tried to pretend you didn't
Don't know if it hurt you
Suffocated you
The same way it did me

If you ever felt
The pain and the fear and the misery 
That I did
Then maybe you'll figure out how
To understand

Remember all those times
That I would flinch under your touch
Crumple when you raised your voice
Fell submissive to your every whim
Moments I shouldn't have brushed off
That was me breaking

I can't be friends
Can't be around
People who 
Make me scared
Repeatedly hurt me
Will never understand me

And it's not
Entirely
Your fault
Because honestly
There's a part of me
That wants to thinks we could survive this

The thing is
Now I realize 
I don't have to
I have a choice
Right now
I choose me

We aren't friends anymore
I'm mostly sorry I just left
But
I don't owe you
The one who hurt me
An explanation

But just in case
I leave you this
And then maybe I can be free from you

© 2015 AJadeLion


Author's Note

AJadeLion
I literally don't even know what I was thinking so....take that for what you will

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I love this poem it is so amazing. your flow is great and your language is so beautiful and simple. Your topic is something we can all relate to and is actually meaningful. Thanks for writing, keep up the good work

Posted 8 Years Ago


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Hi HockeyPrincessJade. Good to have you back, my friend!!!~! loved this write, and I have the feeling you know where it came from, just keeping that to yourself (LOL). This is from deep within and because it has so much meaning for you, it tears into the heart of the reader. I could hear your tears and feel the pain!!! An extremely goo write!!!! alf

Posted 8 Years Ago


AJadeLion

8 Years Ago

Thank you! You're amazing and perfect!
alf

8 Years Ago

Just glad to see you back!!!! And it is an extremely good write!!!!

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Added on May 13, 2015
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