Big boys cry

 

I think I’m a big boy now,

Cause I’ve learnt how to cry,

I’ve learnt how to live without you,

With you, always on my mined

I think I’m a big boy now,

Cause I can hide the way I feel,

I can put on my happy face

While exploding, from within

 

So if you think I’m lost,

Please don’t try to find me,

If you think I’ve drowned don’t try to revive me,

Cause I’m a big boy now, yes I’m a big boy

And this is the way I want to live.

 

 

I think I’m a big boy now

Cause I ain’t afraid to die

Living is what scares me most,

And so dose being loved

I think I’m a big boy now

Cause my heart, breaks silently,

I smile as I shake your hand

But on the inside I’m raging violently

 

So if you think I’m sad,

It’s the only way for me,

And if you think I’m lonely,

It’s the way I choose to be,

Cause I’m a big boy now, yes I’m a big boy

And this is the way I want to live.

 

 

I think I’m a big boy now

Cause I trust no one bad or good

I won’t tell you how I feel,

I don’t want to seam rude.

I think I’m a big boy now

Cause I’ve learnt how to lie

I tell myself life ain’t so bad,

As I try to get by.

 

So if you hear me screaming,

Pretend you’re not there,

And if you see me crying,

Don’t act as if you care

Cause I’m a big boy now, yes I’m a big boy

And this is the way I want to live.

 

 

I think I’m a big boy now

Cause I feel less every day

Soon I’ll have no feelings left

For that day I pray.

I feel like a big boy now

Who’s been beaten, like a drum

Since the day that you walked out

I’ve been feeling kind of numb.

 

So if you want a friendly ear,

Keep away from my door

And if it’s help you want

Don’t call on me, no more

Cause I’m a big boy now, yes I’m a big boy

And this is the way I want to live

 

I think I’m a big boy now,

Cause I know when to stop.

Reviews

[dark and twisty]

heart breakingly true...i could feel the agony resonating throught it...it's so painful, maybe because I can relate to it on so many levels...there's spelling errors here and there but even that could not detract from the power of the content..

i like the way you associate 'growing up' with a loss of being able to feel and concealing your emotions to a greater extent because that is so true of how we live and develop in today's social climate...in fact i have found as one gets older that everything just means less and less, first words, then actions, and then before you know it nothing anyone does or says means anything anymore...and so in order to function in a social world like this, you wind up playing down the importance of your own feelings, pretending it doesn't hurt when it does etc till one day you just don't feel anything anymore...

[Norma J. Jessee]

Powerful words with a twist at the end.
Very emotional and heartwrenching but to me it also shows that men
have hearts and feelings also. I have never understood why most mothers
teach their boys, " Big boys don't cry " I always told mine if they felt the need
for tears let it go, Tears are our release valve and hey why shouldn't a
man be allowed to cry when he hurts.

Great work

[jenniewren (J.W. Bouwma..]

to me this reads as a song.. sort of twangy, maybe even southern rockish - ie black crowes, acoustic guitar, rough and a touch bluesy.. i love the rhythm of it, and the ending is spot on!

[O!]

i started reading and i was okay....the usual build up....but then it stayed the same....thats when i thought 'that is not what i see in a big boy'....and then comes the end...........Brilliant!!!........."CAUSE I KNOW WHEN TO STOP".

sneaky! hehe

x,
O!

[Sean M. Addams]

very nicely done this poem really speaks out to me... overall a very powerful write.

[R J Askew]

Great stuff. I like manly poems. I like the refrain in this one '...yes I'm...' which I think works really well and makes it sound natural. The bit about scared of living also rings true for many as life challenges at every turn. I am a father of three. I find the onus of being a father sometimes terrifying. What if I fail in some way? But you have to go on and do your best, for them. I think it is when we accept our responsibilities as men that we are truly become ourselves. Being an anchor in other's lives can be a heavy thing, but on the other hand, there is a quiet satisfaction of knowing that you matter in a quiet sort of way.

[QuietPoet]

Wow, great write. I can feel the emotion running through this piece. Really nicely done. Very deep and heartbreaking. I enjoyed this.