An Absent Father

As I listen to the song where'd you go
I always cry
Wishing you were here

I don't think
You and mom know
How much it affected me

To this day it still does
And everytime
Father's day come around

I get depressed
My heart hurts
Because I don't have you there

I love you and hate you
I love you because no one can replace you
I hate you because you don't make an effort to be in my life

You have no idea
How hard my life has been
Because you weren't there

I hear from you every few months
And then you disappear
Do you enjoy doing that to me?

I see all the people on father's day
Giving gifts to their fathers
And I can't, because your not here

You won't be there
To see me graduate
From college

You won't be there
To walk me down the aisle
When I get married

When you told me
You went to jail
Two days before my 19th birthday

Do you have any idea
how much that hurt?
how I felt?

Now you want to move
To a different state
Great....you definately won't be in my life

Part of me wishes
You and mom
were still together

Just so I would know
How it would've been
To have a dad

Maybe I wouldn't have made dumb decisions
Maybe I wouldn't have been treated the way I was
I didn't know

You never taught me
The only thing you taught
Was that your not reliable

I love you and hate you
My father
My dad

Who is never there
In my life
Now and ever
 

 

Reviews

[Heather]

I read this poem because my daughters father left her a week ago and she feels so lost. Your poem is very powerful and emotional. It also helped me because your words are so raw and innocent. Perhaps I can help my daughter through your words. thank you for sharing!

[~Angelic~]

Wow! Well I am so sorry that happened to your daughter. It's a feeling no one should ever have to deal with. I hope my words helped your daughter and you're more than welcome. Thanks for reading!

[Johnny Westbrook]

Very powerful and emotional. I like the way you wrote this. Well written and great job.

[Raven Held]

Very powerful even though language used is simple. In fact, the simplicity of your language portrays the innocence of the character better.

Thanks for sharing!

Loves,
Raven

[Charlotte Marie]

Sad poem! Very powerful yet very emotional! Great job! Thanks for sharing!!!~CM~