fitting in loveA Story by Ariana PapastergiouI present to you an extract from my journal that includes some of my recent thoughts on love and "fitting in love". You will understand what I mean by that once you have read the extract. Enjoy!!!-fitting in love-
“In Spain I met a girl […] and understood
what love was. It's not just physical attraction, or ''doing the right thing''.
It's not even working out how much you've got to live on and where you might
set up house. Nor about stealing kisses in taxis, though I' m fond of that. […]
It's finding someone who fits around you and inside you, who you die for
because you want them to exist more than you want your own life to go on.
There's independence in that kind of love. It makes you both strong, so long as
it's mutual”.
Form “The Dress
Thief” by
Natalie Meg Evans
In many books I have found various
meanings of love, but this one, this meaning, introduces a new principle to the
whole subject. “...someone who fits around you and inside you...” . That is the
phrase that opened new aspects to my idea of true love. I had never thought
before that love could be associated with fitting around and inside someone. I was oblivious to the fact
that it could be so important to be the sheath to one's sword, both physically
and mentally. And I am not talking about heterosexual love only, I am talking
about all kinds of love. Homosexual, transgender, gender fluid, does it really
matter how we name it? At the end of the day it's still love. Pure, vulgar, raw
and... fitting love. I will make an attempt at interpretation. I suppose that
if we observed a couple which cannot stand one another, which fights all the
time then we would say that they don't really fit around each other, right? But
I wonder, how would two people who actually fit around each other be like? I
don't think that it is about the lack of conflict or the always intertwined
fingers and the full-teeth sugar smiles. No. I am inclined to believe that it
is about how they are with each other when it comes to complete silence and
unrelenting fights. And about what they are saying with their eyes when they
are not talking or touching. And about their deepest thoughts, thoughts that
are so dark that they either steal all the smiles away or make them devilish
and mischievous. It is so complicated
but so simple a declaration. Love is about what one communicates without
uttering a single word and about what one feels without having to explain it.
Love, I think, is a silent situation that turns, or, is capable of turning into
a complete chaos with only a smile during an outrageous argument or a touch at
the most unexpected of hours. How odd, but how...daring, in a way. Like a challenge
that you cannot resist but take up. And now to the “fits inside you” part. I
am not an expert in these matters but I speak from experience when I say that,
before you find someone that fits inside your body and decide that he or she is
the one for you, make sure that they can fit inside your mind as well. There
are many people who go after the first and neglect the other. I am not saying
that that's wrong. Everyone has their priorities and desires in this life, but
I sincerely feel that if you truly want to be loved and appreciated, like I do,
you have to go after both body and mind. If you only go after the body, then
are you really any different from an animal? And if you only go after the mind
will you ever really be satisfied as a soul?
For me, the one cannot function properly without the other. Making love
with your body is one thing, surely pleasurable, but I don't think that it is
as fulfilling as when two minds make love or even better, when both minds and
both bodies make love all together. The spirituality of the moment, the
combined energy and wits as well as the little giggles and shudders that come
afterwards. Can you find a better feeling than a feeling that is fittingly
shared? I don't know. Maybe, I'm old fashioned. “Let me not to the marriage of
true minds...” . The modern world … does not function like that and this
realisation saddens me. It saddens me because I understand that in the quest
for love, my mindset is a little different from other men's and women's.
Because I understand that love like this is so difficult that only exists in my
beloved books and films. And I suppose this sadness will continue to linger
until I find my other half. Ah, even calling it “ my other half” sounds so
stupidly romantic. It takes me back to the times of Bronte and Austen. I think
times were different then, people more restrained, especially women. And
perhaps that is what caused the birth of shared, wild and undeniable love back
then. The existence of restraints, by society, by family, by status
which no matter how awful, made everything more fiery and passionate and true.
Nowadays with all that freedom, people, I think, are scared of loving like
that. It is so frightening to love, when nothing exists to hold you back. When
there's no one to defy and go up against. © 2018 Ariana PapastergiouAuthor's Note
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Added on January 16, 2018 Last Updated on January 16, 2018 AuthorAriana PapastergiouAthens, GreeceAboutName's Ariana / 18 years alive, bothering everyone / dances in public areas if the music is good / writes stuff that probably no one understands / draws sketches to calm down / adores Shakespeare and .. more..Writing
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