Suffocate

I wonder if anyone understand what I'm trying to say...

Feels like I'm suffocating,

But I'm breathing just fine.

A feeling I've grown used to,

I have it all the time.

The slightest brush, 

From even a hair,

Touches above my collarbone,

I find myself gasping for air.

I feel hands there,

Could it be a ghost?

I don't see anything,

This feeling I dread most.

It's always there,

No matter what I do.

Sometimes I can ignore it,

I wish it was through!

No one else knows it,

They wouldn't understand.

I can't answer the questions,

They would demand.

I wasn't abused,

Not in that way.

Who could understand,

The words that I say?

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Ryan Henderson]

I love this poem, I love the tone it sets, hopelessness and desire. I like the rhyming scheme, the descriptive words, and the flow of the poem. I also like how the poem talks about being misunderstood, thank you for sharing, very nice work!

[Arrinae]

I'm pleased to hear that you like it. I put my thoughts and feelings into this as much as I could. Thank you for commenting!

[K.N. Thorn]

A beautifully descriptive poem. Your feelings about it shinning through. I know it is a horrible feeling but you found a great way to express it. 'I feel hands there, could it be a ghost' I really enjoyed this the most. Knowing something inanimate is keeping your breath from reaching your lungs. Could you possibly make the font a little bigger, between the bold and the itallics it was a little hard to read some of the words.

[KeithKVH]

It gives a rather unsettling feeling. I wasn't sure whether this was from your story, so I looked at the reviews, and was a bit surprised to hear you suffer from this inexplicably. The poem gives a clear sense you're very frustrated with it and people not understanding. D:

I'm not sure why with my ability to stare at text walls unfazed for hours, but whatever font or style it's written in was a bit of a struggle to read without getting rather close.

[Sectando]

I too can associate this with anxiety and to anyone who knows what this feels like you can really tell the desperation of people not understanding and worse, not knowing what to tell them or how to explain yourself. Thanks for sharing. It does help to read the pleas of other people who suffer from things we sometimes can't help but feel alone in.

[Arrinae]

I'm glad that so many people understand. I still don't know how I'd describe it to my higher ups without them making me go to a doctor who will most likely just tell them I'm faking to get out of something or try to load me up on meds I have no need or intention of taking.

[Sectando]

It can be a long, lonely and destructive road...I haven't come across many doctors who suspect faking..but sometimes meds do help. Starting with a therapist is a good stepping stone. I actually had to wait a long time until I was even able to get to see a dr because of insurance "red tape". Whatever you do, I hope you do something..because I have learned over...and over...and over that doing nothing won't make the problem go away.

[Briana O'Connor]

This reminds me of my anxiety and panic attacks. They are paralyzing trick that the mind plays on us. Those who do not have them can never understand that some have now way of controlling them and others have yet to learn how. This is a very deep expression of this. Whatever it is you were trying to express I feel like you gave it great depth as to let people draw their own conceptions. Thank you for sharing. Well done.

[Arrinae]

Sorry I didn't respond to this sooner. Read the review just as I was falling asleep and forgot about it when I woke up. I do tend to have issues with anxiety at times, but mostly when I get overwhelmed which hasn't happened in about a year now. But that feeling of suffication. I still suffer it even now. usually I barely feel it to the point that I forget about the feeling being there entirely but other times its so strong I can't help but grasp my neck and force myself to breath the way I know I can when my senses are telling me I can't. Its really annoying when it comes to working out.

[KAin]

Excellent use of rhyme here, and the rhythm is well done indeed.
You've conveyed fear very well, it feels like a very personal self-doubt being voiced in lyrical form.
That form seemed to soften the intensity of the words right at first, but at the same time the rhyme allows the message to sink both easier and deeper, allowing for a moment's pause at the end to think about what was set down.
Well done.

[Arrinae]

Thank you, Landred. And it is very personal. I've felt as though I'm choking when I can breathe just fine for as long as I can remember. I don't know when teh feeling first started and I've grown used to it. But it is still frustrating and maddedning especally when it comes to workign out.

[Akshay]

The rhyming is brilliant and doesn't feel forced. The last part speaks to me, I think.
I enjoyed this a lot. Good write, man.

[Arrinae]

Thank you for the review! I am very pleased that you enjoyed it.

[Sami Khalil]

"I feel hands there,
Could it be a ghost?
I don't see anything,
This feeling I dread most."

A very good rhyming poem. Bravo.............

[Arrinae]

Thank you Sami

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome....:)........