My Crumbling Mask

My Crumbling Mask

A Poem by Lovecraft
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A mans carefully wrought facade begins to crumble, exposing his true self.

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My Mask is beginning to crumble, exposing the truth beneath,
I can feel the cracks appear as if I stare into the broken mirror
The facade I have carefully maintained losing all its coherency.

Anxiety courses through my being, terrified by how people will
finally react to who I truly am, finally seeing my true self.

I hide behind my crumbling mask like an actor,
Never revealing my emotional state to anyone,
Neither friend nor family nor even to myself.

No one can know who I am for fear of hatred,
For fear of being exposed like an open wound.

Pieces are falling off, breaking like fine porcelain.

But it dawns on me that I can never mend this mask that I don,
The blood seeping throughout, the scars open for all to witness,
And I can never cover my face with the hands I have neglected.

It is too late to repair that which has long been breaking,
And I have to wonder, after all these years of deception...

Who am I?




© 2017 Lovecraft



Author's Note

Lovecraft
Just read it and let me know what you think. Alessander unintentionally gave me the inspiration for this poem. Thanks Alessander. ;)

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This was a extremely pleasing read. I enjoyed it very much but I am in a state very similar to what you have depicted in this so my review is not the best but I wanted to express some form of respect and try to let you know this is very good. It speaks very deeply​ to me. My mask is not breaking and it's not coming off any time soon. Even those closest to me only know what I have all them to know. We all have a mask to wear we just choose weather to wear it or not. We choose if we define it or it defines us. Under the mask I wear I am changing for I do not yet Know who I am. Thank you very much for publishing this. Yours truly a mad Lord.

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

3 Months Ago

Thank you. My mask/facade has some cracks in it but it has yet to crumble.
Lord of Madmen

3 Months Ago

We always fear what others think but we fear what we think the most. Our own thoughts are what scare.. read more



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This is so relateable.I really loved reading it!I No one can live in the shadow or hide behind their "Perfect Self" forever, at one point it cracks and crumble only to let the' authentic self' reveal itself.Loved this! Thanks for sharing!

Posted 3 Months Ago


...when it call comes crashing down at once in. Been there and felt it again in this poem.
Good read

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

3 Months Ago

Danke. American Psycho was in my mind when I wrote this.
This was a extremely pleasing read. I enjoyed it very much but I am in a state very similar to what you have depicted in this so my review is not the best but I wanted to express some form of respect and try to let you know this is very good. It speaks very deeply​ to me. My mask is not breaking and it's not coming off any time soon. Even those closest to me only know what I have all them to know. We all have a mask to wear we just choose weather to wear it or not. We choose if we define it or it defines us. Under the mask I wear I am changing for I do not yet Know who I am. Thank you very much for publishing this. Yours truly a mad Lord.

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

3 Months Ago

Thank you. My mask/facade has some cracks in it but it has yet to crumble.
Lord of Madmen

3 Months Ago

We always fear what others think but we fear what we think the most. Our own thoughts are what scare.. read more
This gave me anxiety, a good kind of anxiety, how the true form of someone's personality can just emerge and change the way their friends and family might perceive them, is honestly scary to think about. Very well written❤️

Posted 6 Months Ago


' .. after all these years of deception.. Who am I? '

Tis hard to EXIST behind a mask because as you say so finely, eventually the you that was has lost shape; Has distorted the YOU hidden not merely due fear, doubt or necessity but perhaps -you need to lose yourself entirely. I've read your words twice, second time aloud and the above are the thoughts that nudged my review until ..

i suddenly thought of a butterfly emerging from a chrysalis. Who knows what dread and doubt is hiding.. There's only one way to find out - and LIVE..

Posted 8 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

6 Months Ago

I like this nuanced interpretation. I may even have subconsciously thought about it but didn't reali.. read more
emmajoy

6 Months Ago

Happens there are times when we are the servants, not the masters. If you've had things to sort, pe.. read more
The facade I have carefully maintained losing all its coherency.

What a great line...and so true. You captured it perfectly. People tend to create masks...hide behind them...protecting themselves, until the masks become such an integral part of who we are, we don't really know ourselves anymore. I've written a couple poems along this line...so I instantly connected with this poem of yours. Nicely done!

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Thank you. The Japanese have a word for masking their true emotions and what they display in public .. read more
So full of insight and inner emotion, the essential knowledge of one's true self, good dam job! A real Gem of a poem!

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Thank you very much, Fellow Traveler.

Sincerely,
Dexter Morgan, The Bay Harbo.. read more
The truth of most of us reflects in this write. I loved the way you ended it, after all these years of deception I have to wonder who am I. So many shows we put on everyday and never stop and think upon our deeds. Thanks for sharing this nicely crafted piece..
Bala..

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Thank you. We all have a visage for public and it is far different in private. Some of us, maybe man.. read more
Bala Gorthi

9 Months Ago

I agree, Lovecraft..
Man,it's just amazing..quite emotional as well..I really like it..very good write..

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Thank you, Farhan. :)
Very relatable and well written. And, for me, quite emotional.
More people than you'd think wear a mask every day, and suddenly realise that they can't take it off, and who they have professed to be to everybody else, becomes who they are. It can be an immense inner battle.
I loved this, well done. :)

Posted 9 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lovecraft

9 Months Ago

Thanks. I enjoyed your thoughts on the concept. :)

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Tags: Poetry, Poem, Identity, Lies, Mask, Dark, Fear, Anxiety, Self, Truth

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