My Guilty Plea

....Guilty of something that wasn't meant to be done....

What have I done,

Where did I get this gun?

A gun that expells bullets directed at the heart,

Due to my warped view on things.

I've done nothing but place the blame upon another; the emotionally deceased.

Does that make my view justified?

Does that make it ok to shun the ones that "hurt" me just because they did not conform to MY desires?

 

Why did I do it, you ask?

 

What a question!

A question whose answer would be of great significance.

If only I could produce it.

What should I say?

I never got my way so I pulled that trigger...

Or,could I say I just wanted to...because my victim was not even slightly important to me?

Could I even say..I didn't do it??

 

Lies, you say?

 

How'd you know?

I confirm that my target meant a lot to me,

That's why I saw the need to keep close,

I wanted the emotionally deceased to be mine and mine alone,

But that couldn't be the case..to my annoyance.

 

Why would I place such a firm grip if the deceased wasn't really mine, huh?

 

Because I'm jealous.

Yes,all, I'm jealous and a die-hearted lover.

Is that so bad?

Is it bad to try to hold on to what you've been searching for?

Is it bad to try to put things in place once you've gotten the greenlight;

Once you two are the only like terms in an equation of love?

Maybe it is...

I just couldn't accept that it seems.

 

So why slaughter the now emotionally deceased, you ask?

 

Honestly....I didn't mean to.

Have you ever wanted something so bad that when something seems to threaten possibilities, you want to just protect it by trying to somehow tie it to you?

Well that's just what I tried...but when you stifle someone...they slowly but surely drift from you.

That hurts...but,it's your fault isn't it?...no fault of theirs.

I could not accept that...I just couldn't.

 

Yes! I felt rejected.

 

Though my target did not mean harm, I took it that way.

I took it that way because of my skewed vision of everything....

I regret that....maybe the victim would still be alive and I'd learn to live with the feeling of rejection that I contracted on my own basis....

 

You've invited me off the stands...

What a trial inded.

My conscience soon to be cleared...

but when...

I found it hard to lie...Has that worked against me?

 

What's my plea, you ask??

 

I plea guilty.

Yes, I did it all!

I plea guilty.

What have I done?

I plea guilty.

How could I do such a thing?

 

Will I now be punnished for my honesty?

For my guilty plea?...

 

Author's Note

Amazing how we do things without thinking about others' feelings. It's over now though...I'm sorry.

Reviews

[ajasminewallflower]

I couldn't help but think this poem was a mix of Edgar Allan Poe's "A Tell Tale Heart" and Maroon 5's song "Wake up call". This is a great poem to show how one can feel obsessed with love enough to feel that if you can't have him, no one can.To me, it was an enjoyable read. But did this actually happen? In your authors note you make it sound like it did or something did happen but you're using this metaphor of killing someone on accident to express your feelings.Overall, loved it like always

[THE LOST ROSE]

This was an amazing poem Blessed. Sometimes we can't take the time to think, we just react. Because of those actions we as writers can express our feelings in time on a blank sheet of paper. If we took the time at first we might not have been enlighten by this poem? I hope the person appreciate this creative sincere apology? Wonderful!

[StrawberryDream]

I love the raw force of this poem... Yes, there was a huge since of guilt throughout its entirety, and I hope the writer will be able to express it through words and more words until she is freed. :3 Nice write..

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

it's interesting how our poetry is very similar. you should read a couple, anyway, i will tell you later, back to your review. grat poem, very strong, intense, and honest. raw, and i love raw poetry. you are a great writer, one of my favorites here.

[Walkingblind]

Through the whole poem I got the picture of someone confessing with honest tears,
her weapon of choice and a bleeding heart. Sometimes we do things without thinking,
its in our nature to yearn for things even the things we know aren't ours. What makes it
hurt so bad is the dreams, the dreams of being close...close enough to smell his cologne,
discover how contagious his smile is, test how near to him u can get before his body heat
mixes with yours. It's the dreams that drive us insane. Great poem BlessedLove

[Lyrical Love]

Great that you recognized and learned from a mistake=which will prevent further mistakes.
Nice lesson/write!

[luke312]

It's alright to feel guilt for hurting someone close to you it's what you do after that is what matters and if the person is important enough to you try you best to apologize and them give em time.

but again excellent poem keep writing.

[Marc]

Its true...the world gets too cold and heartless,but we shouldn't nv end it or leave it.Just suffer in get grace from the Lord.