Deep down..My Heart still beats for you

Yes!

And what IF I fail?

What if I don't live up to what you expect me to be?

What if I just don't become who you want me to be?

Shall you smite my life?..physically and socially?

Shall you remove my already limited freedom?

Shall you disown me; call me your child no more?

What will you do?

 

You beat down on me,

You curse at me,

You criticize me,

You compare me,

You speak to me in such a condescending manner,

You hurt me...without even realizing it.

 

THEN,

 

You wonder why I'm so defensive..

You wonder why I am "paranoid" about being "insulted",

You wonder why I withdraw myself,

You wonder why I am so emotional,

You wonder why I cant seem to be in a steady mood..

And you don't hesitate to showcase your observation among others.

 

THEN,

 

Persons ALWAYS compare me to you..

"you're JUST like her, you know that?"

I wish I didn't know that...

As much as persons admire you and say I'm "blessed" to have you..

Sometimes..I sit and wonder..

Why do I love you?..

Why do I think I can win this?..

Why not be submissive?..

Why don't I conform...and be just like you..

 

What's in my heart simply cannot be written in a poem..

But can be brought forward by actions..

No, not a rebellion,

But a promise; a vow.

A vow of silence..the one I always mention..

The vow of silence that shall give me peace...

 

Threats fly from your mouth at the same rate cackles burst from a hyena,

Demoralizing statements burn my heart as though acid has engolfed it..

Hurtful observations are taken of me...could I be that much of a failure in your eyes?

Could I truly be that much of a disappointment to you..

I'll show you...

Prove you wrong..Not for you..but for me..

You see,

I want to show myself that I can surpass what persons think of me..

You and I...a Love,dislike relationship...

Whovever would have known...

 

Irony is...Deep down..my heart still beats for you...

Reviews

[luke312]

If your Compared your already there, if you fail you try again, if you pass you move on, if your hurt you heal.

Whats important is you and what you want to do and what you make of your self.

Great Depiction and I have no problem with this poem