It's Better To Be Alone

Just a poem that I did after having a fight with my friends, yet again

Who do you think I am?

Just a clone, just another you?

Nothing but an outline of who I used to be

I'm slowly fading into what you wanted

My bright shinning sun is now covered with dark clouds

I want to break free of these chains

Leave this cruel world behind

But somethings holding me back, what could it be?

Hope, love family

These words are the only thing that keeps me holding on

My world is beginning to shatter

Somebody save me

I have never felt so alone and betrayed

You have never been there

Did you ever even care?

Or was I just your backup plan

You were never a good friend

I'm better off without you

If you ever feel lonely, don't bother to call me

I'd be gone, living my life in the sun

I have never been so happy

The dark clouds are lifting my spirits

I realize now that maybe it's better to be alone

Nobody can hurt you

Author's Note

This is just a poem that I came up with after having another fight with one of my friends. I seriously need to find new friends, I wish I wasn't so shy and quiet.

Reviews

[Seth Exile]

Hi Booklover

I can tell your feelings were hurt when you wrote this. It's a pretty haunting piece, and it kind of touched me. I can totally relate to someone who feels as shy and quiet as I do. I think you're poetry is pretty cool. Keep up the good work. :)

[Booklover200014]

Thanks for the review, it's nice to have someone that can relate to my feelings. :)

[Caradoc]

Yea. People suck.

Sadly, while some of us can live quite happily alone in a cabin somewhere in the middle of a dense wood, most of us crave company. We don't want to be all by ourselves. We want recognition, we want acceptance. We want to feel valued.

I'm sorry for your troubles. You probably do need new, better friends. From this piece I would gather you know a "queen bee" type. I'd ditch her, but you have to be aware of the possible, highly likely fallout.

Thanks for sharing this piece. You conveyed the anger, sadness, frustration, and pain well. It's also fairly well written.

And in regards to stanzas two and three? Don't do it. Keep holding on. Don't let your jerk "friends" push you into something that's as "final" as that. Give yourself a chance to find some decent people to call your own. Like diamonds they're hard to find. But they are out there. And even shy people manage to find them.

Be well.

-Caradoc

[Booklover200014]

Thank you so much for the review, I'm really grateful for the support. My greatest fear had always been about people leaving me alone because I've been ditched by my best friends way back in Primary. She was a Queen Bee type and ditched me because I wasn't cool enough for her. My current friends that have been causing me to despair, they're not the Queen Bee type. They just take jokes too far, make fun of my hopes and dreams, they make a big deal out of everything. It really frustrates me. If I wasn't so nice, I would fight back, but I'm too afraid of losing them.

I am desperate for real friends that I have joined a few friends website in hopes of meeting someone that I can call my friend. Sadly, I've had no luck yet.

Oh and don't worry. I've never thought of ending my life over something like that. Sure, I am mad at my friends and do feel quite lonely most of the time. But I'm still happy because I've got my family and I know that they love me. :)

[Caradoc]

You are very welcome. That's great that you have people you can rely on.