When im dead

When I'm dead , I don't
Want to see the splendor
Of heaven , I don't deserve
It.

When I'm dead I , don't
Want to see the pits of hell.
I just want it to be dark. Just
A lost soul , rambling .

When I'm dead , I don't wish
To be remembered , grieved over.
Or even though about .

When I'm dead , I don't want
To be known as someone who
Had problems .

But people always remember
The ones who are gone
In that way. And that's why I can't
Pull the trigger.