A Poem by OutSpoken

A short poem about my current state of mind.

My mind is at war with itself
Everyday I'm fighting for some sort of control
I can't seem to feel present within my own body
My thoughts seem to echo in someone else's head
These are not my words 
These are not my arms and legs
I have stifled my soul and I have lost myself
I do not feel present
I am lost to this reality
Because in reality to me there is no reality
In reality I am not a reality
I try desperately to feel present
Pain is the only way
That helps me to feel less far away
Why can't I be normal again?
I have given up
No longer do I pinch myself to tell my mind that I am indeed me
No longer do I panic when I jolt awake at 3
I have become numb and blank
I can sit and stare for hours and think of nothing
I want to feel something, anything
Love, hate, hurt, anger, jealousy, greed
Anything to make me fel like me
I am lonely within
And yet still I automatically carry on like everything is okay
I don't know what is going on with my brain
I want to feel sane and true happiness again.
Help Me.

© 2017 OutSpoken

Author's Note

Ignore the lack of punctuation.

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No disrespect meant, but the speaker in this poem is describing symptoms of schizophrenia. Hopefully medication and therapy will help.

Posted 10 Months Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This speaks VOLUMES!!! I love it.

Posted 10 Months Ago

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Added on November 28, 2017
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