1Day, But Not 2Day

1Day, But Not 2Day

A Poem by Brjden (Bridge-Den) Crewe
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This is about a man conflicted & confused with what to do about his current 2 year relationship. Sometimes we become complacent with our "significant", and we fear forever, worried about missing something(or someone) that may never come...

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"She's crying her heart to me, how could you let this be?

I just need time to see, where I wanna be......."

                                      Donell Jones, "Where I Wanna Be" 

 

1DAY, BUT NOT 2DAY

by Left Field "Bi-polarAsHeGetsOlder" McLovin 

 

I love my girlfriend,

 

and I know like the back of my hand....
That I plan to stand at an alter with her

exchanging wedding bans
one day........

but not two day!
I'm sitting at a coffee shop alone now, reading a book, zoned out
Reflecting about sexing her and how she moans out, but I'm shook......

I'm shook thinking,

"Damn....I really love this girl!"
"What wouldn't I do for her?"

I work, I go to college, wash the car, take out the garbage, I'm a go-getter, fulfill dreams, I would rob, steal, and kill things, I wreck n****s who're wreckless, if they don't get the message, that "She's mine homie! Now get ghost!" I let her in, let her get close, I love her, she loves me, I love hard, I love free, make our love work, I work to be, the best man I can so she'll make love to me, I'll drill bolts on a steamboat and toke unclean mill smoke in the hopes.....

In the hopes that I can give her everything!
I'll give her the whole world right now!......

But I can't give her a wedding ring?

But I plan to 1day.....but not 2day
and probably not 2morrow!!!!

but anyway....

My girl.....

She's the best thing that happened to a bum like me!!!
She's the apple of my eye, whatever that ever means, The Bonnie to my Clyde, the wet part of my dreams, The reason I "Get By" like Talib Kweli, me and her, we ride or die side by side, but geez!.....

My side can hurt sometimes....

And sometimes I think

she's not even worth my rhymes
But she is….I think she is,

but what I really think it is, 
Is that MAYBE I'm not even worth her time

MAYBE I'm using that as an excuse and I'm lying
MAYBE we're dying

MAYBE I'm trying to find

a reason for not trying
MAYBE, I'm blatantly denying

my obvious fear of flying
MAYBE, but MAYBE NOT

What the f**k is wrong with me?
I can't see.....

That I'm a lucky son of a b***h for her 
To love someone like me?
For 2 plus years, she been right there for me
And when I think about what I put her through,
It's so plain to see
She means everything to me,

and she's everything I need!!
So as I sit here at this coffee shop,

you know what I think?
I think today I'll cop a ring,

and get down on one knee
Look at the woman I love

and ask her......
"Will....You....Marry....M..."

And at that very moment, 
I hear a voice say "Excuse me......"
I "matter of factly" look up,

and you know what I see?
A sexy, little brown thing

staring directly back at me

She says "I see you're not using it,

so can I borrow that?"
I say "Yeah, take the sugar tray,

you don't have to bring it back."
Baby girl was small and petite,

but her a*s was fat!
Her hair was jet black in a curly blowout.....

I like that
With her thin, black framed,

reading glasses to match
Her skin was "Nia Long" toned,

with soft, full lips like pillows
And big holes in her cheeks

that beautifully passed as dimples
She was real cute
..

W/ her fitted, beige cargo pants

and open-toed shoes
Perfect "C" cups

w/ a brown t-shirt

that read "F**k Fox News!"
"GODDDDDAAAMMMNN!!"
I didn't say that out loud!

It's just what I was thinking
I asked her to sit down,

and she brought over the tea she was drinking

We talk....We love the same music,

and hate the same actors
Share the same laughter

and laugh at the same rappers
She hates Pretty Ricky.....
I HATE PRETTY RICKY!!!!!

She called them "Midget, little, no talent, funny looking jag-offs"
I THINK THEY
RE MIDGET, LITTLE, NO TALENT, FUNNY LOOKING JAG-OFFS TOO!!!
She thinks Family Guy is the "gold standard" of comedy
I THINK FAMILY GUY IS THE "GOLD STANDARD" OF COMEDY TOO!!!!

She says "The moral fiber of our society is equated with our regulations of what is allowed through popular culture, which wont be solved until our parents start parenting, our communities reactivate themselves positively reaffirming the old notion that it takes a village to raise a child, and the program directors for major television & radio networks begin feeding us not ONLY whats entertaining for us, but whats also spiritually & intellectually good for us as well."

I THINK THE MORAL FIBER OF OUR SOCIETY IS EQUATED WITH OUR REGULATIONS OF WHATS ALLOWED THROUGH POPULAR CULTURE, WHICH WONT BE SOLVED UNTIL OUR PARENTS START PARENTING, OUR COMMUNITIES REACTIVATE THEMSELVES POSITIVELY REAFFIRMING THE OLD NOTION THAT IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO RAISE A CHILD, AND THE PROGRAM DIRECTORS FOR MAJOR TELEVISION & RADIO NETOWORKS BEGIN FEEDING US NOT ONLY WHATS ENTERTAINING FOR US, BUT WHATS ALSO SPIRITUALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY GOOD FOR US AS WELL TOO!!!!!!

Heaven must be close B,

it's like this woman knows me!
This feeling is how it's suppose to be
Then my brain says
 

"Wait a minute homie!"
You're suppose to be in love,

and there's nothing else to say
I thought I was gonna marry my girl
 

One day, but not Two day
(and probably not 2morrow) but anyway
Should I let baby girl here get away? 
Or should I try and make her stay?
Or should I stay with my current girl

until I'm old and gray?
I feel sick B!!
I think baby girl here will get with me
But will she stick with me?
And that's when it hits me.......

SHE'S JUST A FANTASY
Her grass just looks greener.....from A FAR
It's no mirage,

it's just that another person's house

just looks cleaner......from A FAR

And as far as I know, baby girl here is a hoe, & she's selling it for dough, or she's a chick with a dick, or has two conjoined toes or sniffs blow up her nose, or she grows and sells the s**t, or she throws massive fits & pick fights just for kicks, or shell stalk & blow a n***a up if he packs & tries to go, or she can burn a n***a's dick, or she can cut off the s**t, or she can spend all my money, or her food can taste funny, or she can leave me all alone with no home & clothes bummy, or she can play a bunch of games, or she can try and cast a "hex", or when we're in the middle of having sex, she can call out the wrong name!.....So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow, throw fits, burn the food and a dick, stalk n****s, voodoo child, forget my name, spend HIS dough & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW!!!!

And that's the thing......

I don't know, but see,
I do know what's waiting

at home for me!

Good Ol' Faithful Love!
She puts up with my s**t, 
Cooks me good food, takes care of me when I'm sick
She helps me with my tie, holds me down when I cry
And in bed, she knows all those little, dirty things I like

She's always there for me, 

      Even when maybe

she shouldn't be

She's unappreciated.....I'm sincerely sorry
This is my uninitiated, unapologetic apology
A scoreboard to record my "

Bridgey Fucked Up" anthology
How old is too old for the fantasy?
How unfair is too unfair for her?
How long can I wait for something

I already have?

And how can I make my dick concur?

 

I NEED HER, AND I NEED TO BE "ME" WITH HER
AND I NEED TO BE FREE TO SEE WEDDING RINGS
WITH......HER

And who knows?

Maybe 1Day, will be 2Day
Well....Maybe not 2day
But not too many 2morrows

 

 

© 2009 Brjden (Bridge-Den) Crewe


Author's Note

Brjden (Bridge-Den) Crewe
So one of my favorite movies is "High Fidelity". In one of the final scenes the main character asks his girlfriend to marry him. She never wanted to get married, but he asks because he says that he's tired of the fantasy. I wouldn't give the scene justice, but what he was basically saying was that he's tired of waiting for something(or someone) that may never come. I wrote this trying to express not waiting for a fantasy that may be a mirage or may never come. What if you have what you already want? I know it's human nature to upgrade. You begged mama for a Playstation 2 and promise never to ask for anything ever again!.....Until......the Playstation 3! But this really is an ode to appreciation and realizing the beauty and what's precious already in your life.

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This is so...
AMAZING! I LOVED EVERY BIT OF THE REALIZATION THAT YOU DELIVERED SO JUSTLY!
You once again stir up thoughts, and bitterness, and make me laugh out loud!!! I really appreciate your honesty, and humor! Maybe more men,( and okay women )should think things through before hopping over the fence to play in that artificial/bug infested green grass!!
My favorite...LOLOL!!!!!
And as far as I know, baby girl here is a hoe, & she's selling it for dough, or she's a chick with a dick, or has two conjointed toes or sniffs blow up her nose, or she grows and sells the s**t, or she throws massive fits & pick fights just for kicks, or she stalks & blows n****s up if they pack & try to go, or she can burn a n***a's dick, or she can cut off the s**t, or she can spend all my money, or her food can taste funny, or she can leave me all alone with no home & clothes bummy, or she can play a bunch of games, or she can try and cast a "hex", or when we're in the middle of having sex, she can call out the wrong name!.....So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW
You have masterful talent!

Posted 15 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.




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I like the bit about the 'pillow lips' and 'her grass is greener'...I'd love to hear a poem from her side of the fence on the situation!

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

"Now get ghost!"... i love that phrase. Never heard that before.

This was very well executed and relates so many feelings i know many can understand when dealing with the thought of "forever with one other". the feeling of "what if i'm missing out?" and thinking "maybe i'm trying to sabatosh a good thing" but what we don't realize is it is damn hard to get a good thing in this life as far as relationships. to find someone who treats you right in the sense of how you want to be treated... someone who holds your same beliefs and ideas and understandings, that "compatability" factor. many go their whole life without it, some never find it. Awesome piece

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

EXCELLENT POEM! ONE OF MY FAVORITES BY YOU. there was a little humor in it too; hence;
BY Left Field "Bi-polarAsHeGetsOlder" McLovin (THAT MADE ME LAUGH. THANKS)
The reason I "Get By" like Talib Kweli, (i LOVE THAT SONG, BY THE WAY.)

i think a lot of men can relate to this piece, so many cheat, and it's so good you weren't the one that has. but you have a good point here: appreciate your woman, bec just because omething looks good on the outside, does not mean it really is. i know so many men that go to other women for fun, but are so disrespectufl in the end, bec they throw them away and go back to their woman they appreciate eventuallyu. i think it's selfish, but that's why i dont' get involved with men who are taken! lol and if they are i realize i may be last, or never at all.

GOOD POEM! you have a style all your own, and it's so unique and flows. spitting hot fire.




Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Man! this piece is hot! Mainly because you are talking about a struggle that runs through most people not just men. Your a fantastic teller of stories brother keep motivating the masses.

"Heaven must be close B, it's like this woman knows me!
This feeling is how it's suppose to be
Then my brain says "Wait a minute homie!"
You're suppose to be in love, and there's nothing else to say
I thought I was gonna marry my girl One day, but not Two day"

Thanks

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

OMG. I loved it... the age old battle of what's good to you vs. what's good for you...
beautifully done, very vivid, and although it was rough and real, very poignant.
:) You're amazing.

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

So this is how guys think huh? Interesting i always luv the intensity in your poems you
most definately bring it Bridgey. I like how he's thinking the whole time it's not that he
doesnt love his current women but he's thinking about the ups and downs of the relationship
kind of measuring it in his own way. Throwing the other woman in as a distraction was brilliant an
you could've made her out to be a Hollywood star shinier then the sun, wearing namebrand tissue
paper, but you had her lookin real and I like that. U even made her seem smart! and up to date, to
show us that distractions come normally it's how u deal with them that determines ur character and
through she appeared to be great, he knew he had someone great waiting for him. Nice Bridge real nice


Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

I confess this one didn't pull me along like some of your others - the flow seemed to come and go. Hmm... not unlike relationships... If that was intentional, then [insert a term of pure awe]. As always, though, you express your thoughts and feelings superbly.

Since I can't leave my $0.02 in my pocket...
The grass will always appear greener elsewhere and your efforts will be much better spent cultivating the wonderful garden you've already found. The "perfect person" doesn't exist outside of the movies. The perfect person is the person you commit to and true love is the result of two people who commit to loving each other in spite of their imperfections and through the ebbs as well as the flows. Love is hard work and absolutely worth the effort.

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Good stuff, man. I really like that you write exactly what's on your mind, and I can always tell how passionate you are about your subject matter.

In fact, I need to find out how to get my hands on a "F**k Fox News" tshirt.

Otherwise, I enjoyed the emotional outpouring in your poem. It's all over the map, which is not normally my thing, but you had my attention throughout. Keep up the good work!

Posted 15 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.

Awh. That is so sweet in deep in a great male perspective way. lol Its true that the grass always loogreener and the love always seems sweeter but that is why most people, not just men, lose out on something great because they caught the glance of somthing fake.......... The best part about this piece is that you found reality and you didnt let anything steer you away from that.

This piece should make all WOMEN......not girls.......Laugh hard because we know that man that keeps calling when he realizes that he fucked up. Oh well. I have my mean streak so I have yet to take someone back after we parted ways but after reading this I may just give it a try. lol You never know what might happpen.

Live, Love and Learn

Lady V

Posted 15 Years Ago


3 of 3 people found this review constructive.

WOA! THIS WAS MASSIVELY LONG!! and WORTH the read :D

Loved it...raw...brilliant...entertaining!

Thanx for sharing hun!

God bless..

~~BlessedLove~~;)

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.


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