A Drop of Happiness

A Drop of Happiness

A Poem by BryanaBear

Am I so wrong to want to die?
I’m lost in a sea of people. 
Trying to stay afloat but….
I’m drowning, sinking, dying inside.
I can’t breath, can’t sleep …
Can’t do anything right. 
I can’t even end my own life. 
I’m just a scared piece of s**t.
I go into panic attacks… That’s not it..
They are followed by tears & …
Asthma attacks that make me wish…
Wish I was dead, just stop breathing..
Like it would all end, the pain..
Confusion. Faking a smile.Depression
I’d ask for help but I’m far past that..
I’m broken,crumbling,falling apart.
The blade is so close, comforting. 
I welcome the oozing pain… Longing 
I wish I was brave, brave enough… 
To step up and end it all. Maybe…
That’s not what I need? I’m tired.
Numbing doesn’t work. I’d kill for…
A drop of happiness that’s untainted. 
Not a drop of sadness, not a tear.
Wouldn’t that be great? Just one.
One drop of happiness, restore faith.
But that’s to much to ask for.

© 2013 BryanaBear


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well constructed.. pain inside reflecting.

Posted 6 Years Ago


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BryanaBear

6 Years Ago

thanks
I can feel it! spontaneous and touching!

Posted 6 Years Ago


BryanaBear

6 Years Ago

thank you

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Added on January 20, 2013
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Tags: death, drowning, sinking, breath, sleep, tears, end, life, wish, depression, broken, crumbling, pain, faith

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BryanaBear
BryanaBear

Fairbanks, AK



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