make my life mean something.

make my life mean something.

A Poem by Caitlynn Cusick

am i a liar, am i a mistake,
why do people think getting to know me,
will make your soul mine to take..?

am i a fuckup, am i useless,
why does everyone ignore the fact,
that my mistakes are due to their abuse?

dont they know how much they hurt,
dont they know its their fault? 

im not useless, im no mistake,
im perfect in my own messed up way.

i dont leave scars for no reason,
i leave them for me, to show that im human,
and that words hurt me.

when i die i want my scars to open eyes,
open eyes to their cruelty,
and how much their word hurt.

i want them to know they caused my death.
it might not be my physical one,
i dont know how ill go, 
but i want to prove to them,
that they stole my soul,
in tiny bitesized chunks, 
with every harsh word spoken.

i want to leave behind a small impression on this world. 
it wont be big, itll be minute,
but in the end,
even that could be infinite.

i want my life to mean something, 
more than meets the eye.

i want people to look at my life at a deeper level.
more than just words and experiences.
i want them to know that i couldve been the one to change the world.

© 2013 Caitlynn Cusick


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this comes from the bottom of my heart i want to thank you for writing this master piece! reading this poem made me look back and reflect on something very personal that i've kept dormant for almost a year.. now by reading this poem i can finally confront this problem and for that from the bottom of my heart i thank you for writing the best poem i have ever read.

Posted 10 Years Ago


Caitlynn Cusick

10 Years Ago

thanks... it means a lot... :') its really something that ive been bottling up inside... its really .. read more
Honestly, I still love reading the poems you write. And I am thinking about putting up that poem the we wrote together, but first I would like to talk to you on FB.. will you please just listen to me on there. By the way. I feel like I'm the one who caused you to write this actually. I don't want you to hurt, and I don't know why I went off on you exactly, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to work everything out. And please excuse me for saying this but AMAZING job on the poem mon ange tombe de l'obscurite.


Posted 10 Years Ago


Deep poem

Posted 10 Years Ago



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Caitlynn Cusick
Caitlynn Cusick

Chapel Hill, TN



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Gwendolyn Nightshade is a pen name for an author in Tennessee. She is supported by family and friends, and planning on writing another collection. glitter-graphics.com [Glitterfy.co.. more..

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