Celestial* Longing* For* Nothingness

the morning…the world went away

the air breathed trees

not the other way around

sound came and went

without ears to praise it's tunes

my body, went back to sleep

and quickly remember all it wasn't meant to

we live in maya, illusion

changing celestial cosmic gases

orbit my inner space

vodka shots and moonlight kisses

is the closest i get to this magic,

but how do i get closer?

how do i get closer to you?

to myself, to your body

that breathes my air

the starlight

our distance memories of each other

that impede the process, where we let go

and remember to forget,

and keep forgetting

to live the most truthfully

in this illusion

self-manifestation of cosmic hope

of please don't go.

we all once said hello

and will all once say good bye to everyone we met

like butchered meet, i feel this process in my heart

and still i say hello with love everytime

even thought now it's with tears at my eyes,

and a smile, that keeps it all away

i don't know what we would do without smiles

i know mine, can't go away, unless there is nothing more inside

that is always a sad day,

Out of desperation, i go and sit under a tree

and i breathe in the air of all starlight, 

in the melting morning sun

letting go of all music, sound, and desperation

and letting my mind, re-communicate 

with the water, rushing in a soft current, in front of the river

in front of me. and then i walk away, and it's gone.

but it actually not

it's actually there

i can visit it tonight

when you don't call me

and I have nothing better to do

I'll go and be at peace

finally, again 

and again

and 

again. 

to eternity