Love letter never send

I have many letters never send. Sometime words can lose value. Best to stay safe and sound is poor advice. Today I know. Better to take chances and hope for a good ending.

        Love letters  never send.


 Dear Julie

I have felt sadness and disappointment since  I left you at Cedar Point after a week together in August. I remember fragrant of our conversations and the road trip to the West Virginia mountains. We made promises when I was in the service and you gave me great hope and reasons to keep going. I try to forsake your memory. Allow you to finish your time in college and hoped for a reunion one day. I didn't want to be a added burden.

I revisit in my mind and heart how beautiful and joyful you were. I remember going to the Penny Candy  Ice Cream store and having long talks about dreams and hope. I was going to be the great writer and you were going to be a nurse trying to save the world. I remember your soft brown eyes and long tan legs. You were wise to save lust and greed for true love. I became dirty in living. My three years in Germany  taught me the wrong things. When you live for booze and fresh. Your true self dissolved and you cannot return.

I do like the old places. I return to the old dances where I delighted in the feel of soft kisses and long embraces without the need of physical need only. You taught me. Some gifts are worth waiting for. You were wise and I'm thankful to have known you.

Time and distance had separate our lives. I don't believe in fairy tales and happy ending. I have learn to accept less. I'm sorry you saw my anger. I found out too late. Abuse was part of your life. The anger wasn't toward you. I saw in your eyes. You didn't want your mother's life. If I could replay action and situation. I would have known peace and calm for you were with me and life was the best when your hands were in my hands.

I hope one day to thank you. You are living in Chicago and I'm living in Ann Arbor  trying to improve myself by returning to college and working. I write poetry and story for you. A story about a brown hair beauty who took my breathe away. Love and life isn't fair. Essence of beautiful faces and laughter become the blessed days of a life. I hope to mail this letter to you. I hope you are doing well and enjoying your life. I still love you and think of your often. I know the stages of life are not fair. You were going to save the world and I was a fugitive who forsakes his dreams for the wrong things.

Please don't forget me. My phone number is the same. If you need a friend. Please call and keep our friendship alive. We started as friends and I hope you don't forget the boy who like to smile and listen to your songs and hope.

       All my love
     Johnnie
                                   Written in 1982/ Rewritten in 2014

 

Author's Note

Thank you for reading. I do appreciate.

Reviews

[Ruth]

Oh, this moved me, life seems so complex at times and we are never sure what direction to take, not always a case of follow the heart...decisions made or not made can haunt, I think there is some regret in everyone's life...hoping they are remembered by someone who touched their heart...so moving, much enjoyed hon x

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you my friend for reading. Some decisions leave us wondering if we were wiser and kinder. Would we had done more?

[Ruth]

I think we can only do what our consciousness allows at the time so we learn in the future hon x

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Very Moving and Deep, very heart Felt. Felt a if I was there I can see
the story play in my mind I don't usually get
into reading anything very long as I lose interest but you do some amazing stories
like Tate Morgan a good friend of mine I love his work thank you for sharing.

[weirdguyblueeyes]

I posted a song that I wrote for someone three years ago and never sang it to her. This was so sweet, but I have to ask, why didn't you send the letter?

[Coyote Poetry]

No I didn't. I waited too long. I learn if you don't try. Good things and people will leave your life. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[lee von cleef]

to sit on the rim looking out, looking out
asking for the view to give back, give back
A warmth waves from your heart, your heart
the two are the same , beginning or end, beginning or end
love is in the Reflection.

[Coyote Poetry]

"the two are the same , beginning or end, beginning or end
love is in the Reflection." I agree. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Richard Layne]

Very sad and touching. Hints of darkness

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Richard for reading and the comment.

[Daisie Vergara (Dhaye)]

Wow! This is beautiful, CP. A letter that wasn't sent to the addressee. It's a moving love story...since there's no happy ending at all. Sometimes, we just have to accept that some people are not meant to be with you. Some things are not meant to be yours.

This is impressive, CP. Thanks for sharing.

[Coyote Poetry]

I was lucky. I saved all my letters received when I was in the service for 15 years. I wished I kept writing letters. They are personal and can be held in the hands. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[jawan]

very beautiful and touching

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Jawan. I appreciate you reading and the comment.

[Coyote Song]

A very moving letter. It says volumes of how much you cared for this young lady.
Life sometimes takes things away and later we realize what we've lost.
But most of all, I sometimes think life is confusing, we just really don't know what
we want. But happiness would go a long way.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are right. We learn too late. We were blessed with true love and didn't hold on. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Coyote Song]

You are welcome. :)