Now nothing remains the same

Just words

                             Now nothing remains the same

Your name came to me late in the midnight hour. Brought back the canvas of your perfect body, kind smile and your beautiful face. Your name, Fabiola.

Made me wish and want for the things I could not have.

I taught you how to drive on the California highway one in the Winter of 1992 and I remember you holding my hand tightly and your eyes filled with excitement and so content with the feel of the car and the road.

You knew I loved you from the first time I saw you. I would create places and time for us to talk. You told me often. You don't want me. I'm damaged and afraid. I'm waiting for something gone and cannot love.

Love find places in secret valleys and hidden places. Locked doors open for a secret seconds. We went to Big Surf often. I would sing your name and song to make you laugh and smile.  You wanted to forget and to laugh.

Fabiola, Fabiola, Fabiola. My beloved. Let drink wine at the River Inn and dance freely upon the Big Sur sand.

I brought a sleeping bag and you held me tightly watching the sun fall into the west at the Big Sur beach.  You whispered to me. Now nothing remains the same. When love turned to a wild storm than fall back to quiet stream. The body yearn for more.

We took many field trips and I made her dance and sing with.

My dear Fabiola, I left her in the Summer of 1994. She did find love and I have my portraits of a beautiful woman with dark brown eyes who made me dream of a wild and free love. I learn love is not fair.

Need two people with the same needs.

                        John Castellenas/Coyote

Author's Note

A new poem. I hope you like.

Reviews

[The Hampstead Poet]

Beautiful. Innocent, passionate, whole-hearted yearning for a distant face, a distant person, a memory, far from view. You eloquently speak of love, and of the tug on one's heart for the person they love more than any other. It captures the complexity and simplicity of the human heart, of longing and grief for days gone by, for people loved and lost.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the comment. I enjoyed your poetry today. Powerful and good words.

[June Fowler]

Its a nice poem., John! I feel much for ur GF but one needs to move on from a one time stand to something for-ever-after. Leaving behind bitter-sweet memories.

Regards

June.

[Coyote Poetry]

I did. Still some people leave you with memories and no regret. Thank you June for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[June Fowler]

"Need two people........
Same like hers and mine!"

The end sounded blunt to me. just a suggestion. Hope u dont mind, with warm regards.

June

[Coyote Poetry]

Maybe I will a better ending. Was just a tender kiss and a goodbye at our separation. I appreciate the comment dear June.

[andrew mitchell]

How true Cp takes two to tango in love evenly, anymore the imbalance scares one and makes the other insecure in the end. Excellent poetry with CP flavours!

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Andrew. I appreciate the comment.

[zephyr]

Letting go of old love is the only way to gain a new. Poor Fabiola.

[Coyote Poetry]

Old ancient poet said it best. You don't find love. Love find you. Thank you for reading.

[Arjun Singh]

Well....definitely maks me think dt u were once hopeleslly in lv....bt d simplicity of ur wrds, nd d depth within ur heart frm where dey r rootd, definitely mks me appreciate it!

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Arjun. Love given is always a gift. Leave us with the notion, we tried to love once.

[Arjun Singh]

Couldn't agree more!

[Sami Khalil]

Wow. You touch us to the core of romance with all the spice of life and liberty. Bravo, as it is and as you become.....:)......

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Sami. I appreciate the comment.

[Sami Khalil]

You are most welcome. ....:).....

[Valentine]

Ever the traveling romantic....did your wife break your legs to keep you settled in one place??????? Valentine

[Coyote Poetry]

Only one leg. A very old poem. All of us have crushes. Thank God, we can't have all the things we wanted. Thank you my friend for reading and the comment.

[Joseph Tafoya]

Wow I love this it's so touching. This is something I want to create but love has not found me.

[Coyote Poetry]

It will. I like the Donne words. "You don't find love. Love find you." Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Joseph Tafoya]

Yes I do as well I always find those words interesting and no problem just looking at other writers or poets work.

[JayceeC]

Your poems and short stories always hold me enthralled. You don't always use flowery words, but you do paint a picture of love free as the wind. It's the kind that makes your heart bubble with joy while being real. And always she leaves, yet you leave us with a fond memory instead of a bitter taste.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Jaycee. Life is fair. We will have good and bad days. Old memories become sweeter with time and distance.

[JayceeC]

Yes they do, and sadness is easier to shed, in the light of the happier times.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree my friend.