You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[♪GetUse2MyMelodie..]

This poem...I enjoyed it a lot. Truly. It's incredible how it made me smile.
Thank you :)

[A.Lee]

I love this one. We all need saving from time to time, and we should be willing to help save others too. We all lean on each other. Life is difficult when we face it on our own. Great work.

[Awkward]

"I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too."
Those two lines filled me with hope, I may be lost but by helping other I may still have a chance to save myself, this is incredible.
The beginning was awe inspiring, its like life always gives us that little extra umf after all the pain it causes us. Life is not fair but she is kind.
Thank you for sharing, the whole poem filled me with hope.

[Helena]

Incredibly touching and heartfelt. Thank you for sharing this precious write with us Coyote.

[Chirinos20]

Nicely done! The emotions are shown through your writing and the pictures add a special flavor to the poem. Laughter is always a good medicine to the broken heart. Great poem!

[sarah]

This is incredible! I am really touched and the pictures add a really great touch to the poem! nice work

[Michael Jarrell]

Absolutely beautiful. Made me tear up. You are one of my favorite writers on here to tell you the truth. I love how you add photos with your work... really adds to the emotion.

[Jasi Rae]

There are too many parts of this that I loved, so I can't pick a favorite line. Beautiful, to say the very least.

[Angel's Lady]

This piece moved me to tears almost instantly. How empty the world would be without you, so I'm very glad you put the 30-30 down. I think oftentimes we save ourselves when we save another, and vice versa.

Are the photos your family?

Great write, by the way. Thank you for writing this very moving piece.