The Fight

My long battle..

emotions spiralling out of control,
will the day come that i finally feel whole?
Bed feels so warm, i just want to stay,
pull the covers over my head and wish away the day

Happiness turns to sadness, laughter into tears,
everyday awakening to so many different fears..
what is going on with me? how did i get here? where did i go wrong?
questions stuck inside my head like lyrics of a song

How can I dream of tomorrow when this is my today
how much longer can i hide behind the lie "Yes, I am okay!"

Walls building up so high, I cant see an escape,
Like im trapped in this depression, is this really my fate?
I look for a reason everyday that will finally set me free,
I dont like being here, I know this isnt me!

these four walls have become my comfort,feels so safe in here,
pushing everyone away, as its easier than having them near,
I know i have to escape this place, how to do that I just dont know?
Need to find the inner strength i know i have, not be afraid to just let go!

One day at a time, step by step, i know i can win this fight
from years of feeling like a failure..try as i might!
Time to look into the mirror and learn to like what it is i see..
For nothing and no one should be able to take that away from me!!