shoot don't shoot chapter 1A Chapter by Cherrie Palmer
With a steady hand, I lit the cigarette. I hadn’t smoked for twenty years but the pure violence of the moment awakened an old need. That old instinct cried for a drag. Funny thing, the cigarettes belonged to him. I inhaled, and savored the effect, and gathered my thoughts. The fight ended by my nightstand. I had a Ruger secured to the back of it. With one little step, I had gained control. A forceful left sent me stumbling to the only spot in the room I wanted to go. During the commotion, the lamp became wedged against the bed creating eerie shadows. His shaded face laced with hate took a hard look at the gun. He sat down on the corner of the bed.
Looking back, I guess that’s when I reached down and picked up his pack of smokes. I smoked without saying a word, I considered my options. The cigarette had a familiar feel to it as I rolled it slightly between my fingers.
“I let my temper get out of hand. Tonight should have never happened.” His words sounded stressed and hollow. I looked around the room, then walked toward my phone lying in the doorway. “Look, I let a bottle of ‘Evil William’s,’ give me some poor advice. I'll pay for any damages, if you can forget this happened, I'll forget about the past.” Then he flashed his plastic smile. The one he used to serve my sister back when they were together.
My movements were controlled while my mind screamed for instant replay. I reached for the phone and remained silent. My strength tethered in silence, I struggled to gather my wits. I tried to stay focused on his every move and not lose my edge. I couldn't let him see my anxiety. So I sat on my lace-covered stool. The smoky lavender lace, now covered in burgundy fingernail polish no longer reflected issue 32 ‘Serenity and Lavender-Oasis.” A look I had copied from an old issue of 'Better Homes and Garden' creating my own peaceful retreat.
“You’re a liar, a crook, and a monster. I don’t care who knows it.” My words were louder than I wanted. I unclenched my teeth took a deep breath and waited for my cell phone.
"Please, just shut-up."
With each word, he spoke my stomach churned and my internal argument grew louder. I glanced down at my ringing phone. That’s when I noticed most of my fingernail missing. A small laugh escaped me. The injury to his neck and my missing nail matched. I smiled.
I wanted to cry, but there was no time for that. Shoot Him, my mind screamed. Reason tried to calm my fears. The threat was over. Nothing left but a trial and in a courtroom, I would have the upper hand. In response I nodded, agreeing with myself. I felt some of the tension lift, and I crossed my legs. The hem of my evening dress ripped and covered in blood, my own I might add.
I saw my mother’s Tiffany nightlight, broken into a million pieces. Cancer stole her from me five years ago. We bought that lighthouse nightlight right before her first treatment. A symbol of hope. He quickly moved toward me. "Hope" I mumbled. Fear and anxieties churned into rage, and just like years of training had prepared me, I shot him, two to the body, and one to the head. © 2018 Cherrie PalmerAuthor's Note
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2 Reviews Added on March 30, 2017 Last Updated on May 25, 2018 AuthorCherrie PalmerOakland, ARAboutI am a published poet and love poetry. I live near the White River, and love trout fishing. I find my surroundings a great inspiration to me. I also have two books on Amazon Kindle: Obsession Starts.. more..Writing
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