Fighting with myself ( as always )

Has all hope gone I wonder 

I can't see the clearing ahead

I'm so fogged down with this emotion 

these repetitive thoughts 

i'm stuck inside 

the pain heavy

I can't get out

clarity has evaded me 

I can't seem to find kindness anywhere

I don't trust  myself

so leave myself confused 

every one outside my door is a dark stranger to me 

looking upon life with historical tints 

I leave myself feeling small  

with out a hand to hold to hold mine 

I cry in my loneliness and make

paving stones out of tears

making connections to past lives 

but I cant quite master yet 

what is being shown 

I wish I were someone else sometimes 

seems all my identity stuck in 

cruel history that leaves me 

empty handed 

or at least it seems 

I need a brighter light 

to go on 

with rising 

 karma 

feeling so heavy in its darkness 

I struggle 

I fail my self it feels 

staring at the floor 

with heavy eyes 

 

I can't seem to find kindness anywhere

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Easy to fall down and very hard to rise up. A poem with a emotional and sad journey.
"I wish I were someone else sometimes
seems all my identity stuck in
cruel history that leaves me
empty handed
or at least it seems "
I could feel the struggle in the words and the poem closed with a sad ending. Thank you for the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Earthy Mumma Soul]

Thank you for your review x

[MOON]

The most destructive things are the things we tell ourselves. Fighting in our head and reaching out for understanding. Good write.

[Distant horizons]

the title is so apt for this wonderful write. To search for kindness in a sea of indifference would weaken the sturdiest of souls. Love it.