Ever (Forgotten to Me)A Poem by SaturnaliaThere's this place between sleep and awakening and it tells you things you never knew.
So many minds have thought of
Better lines than surface in my Exhausted consciousness, no longer Aware of everything I'm writing out. This paper is too thin to know The heart of the person's words. I try, I know I must because there's This strange sort of utterance of a Wonderful soul burning through my Unaware mind, raging through this Kind of dreaming world that I have yet to identify. Nothing is here, and I don't see Anything that's happening around Me and what's going to become and What's going to end again and again. I don't know where it comes from, or If it will stay for a moment. I still wonder aloud, never being able to say Everything that I need to say to make this Real and true and the things you want to hear. I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to Kill with this mouth of mine that runs off Unaware. Nothing's going now, nothing's staying in this Cold mind, how many times it's roamed away To find a sort of magic only to have it disappear Before my heart can recall what it was to me And you and them and just the world that's laying Still unaware. If I could just gaze before you and find that place You've gone to with my heart of words and my mind Of demons that laugh and haunt and give me this sort Of freedom you need. You take it away, and I'm left Still so cold and begging for some warmth from it. That place has disappeared, never to surface in my Unaware mind that's gone away, never to haunt my Soul again, and I find I miss it to an extent, just to Spite you like I have and die from everything I Placed on this lost and unaware mind. Don't see the place, don't know where it could be. I don't feel like finding it anymore, because it's so Far and distant and it burns my mind, and hurts this Heart I claim to have, and you think you know, along With this tiresome world in this tiresome existence. Gone and here again, I'm unaware of what's Happening to their hearts that are just dying To see and know this thing I speak of to you In the first place, they just want to be there, with Me and you, and all of this Hell we can create. It burns in a wonderful way and visits with A kind of sweet release to know what I'm Thinking is as good as what I want to know And write it down so I do not forget this Place I'll never find again, because it'll Just find me in the rain And I write this in that place that has Fire and ice and life and death and so many Things swirling, merging, wishing and dying To push through the walls of this Hell Blocking my thoughts from escaping to the world They want to visit for just a time. Maybe, just maybe, it'll come to find me Again And maybe, could he see, all the things that Burn And freeze like the winter I created on my Own. You said you can find this place, and you Know Nothing is ever going to be here with me Ever. © 2009 SaturnaliaAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on December 12, 2008 Last Updated on January 12, 2009 AuthorSaturnaliaMy house, NJAbout"The sky is infinite, but my wings will fill the expanse." x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x CHECK OUT MY NEW BLOG: http://inkpapera.. more..Writing
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