Own Poison

Own Poison

A Poem by Pumkin

Own Poison  

A fake smile here and there

They don't see that you're tearing me apart

I feel disgusted that we breathe the same air

Cause to me you are a poisonous dart

You leave early and come home late

I ask you "Honey where were you?"

And you reply "You're the thing in my life that I hate"

No more of your "I am sorry beautiful" or "I love you too"

The kids say they don't see you anymore

I tell them how much you love them all

Then cry behind the closed bathroom door

While stupidly hoping you would come home or call

I wish you cared for them at least

Even if you lost your love for me

I still remember the vows we made in front of the priest

And how you always made me burst with happiness and glee

But I see now how blind I had been

Because you love your drugs and not me

I should have known that drugs will always win

I now know I should have been able to see

Loving an addict is very hard you know

But to others this is something I do not show

Not to mention that it's such a lonely place to be in

As your efforts to help are always thrown in the bin

But still you continue to care for them deeply

Even though they prove that they do not care for you at all

It's like trying to save a beast but it's too beastly

Like trying to climb a mountain but it's too tall

Eventually though you worry for others

And then you have to save your kids and yourself too

Because you know by that time that you can't fix their errors

No matter what you say and how long you argue

You have to be confident and walk away

Even if you feel like you're carrying a heavy stone

You have to be confident and walk away

To leave them to deal with their own poison alone


© 2017 Pumkin

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Added on December 14, 2017
Last Updated on December 14, 2017



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