To this day...

A Poem by justdandy

inspired by: Shane Koyczan

To this day....

I remember, when I was 5.

When I used to not worry about my day.

When I lived each day with imagination.

I lived and dreamed.

Dreamed each day with happiness.

Lived each day with love

Then life turned around.

It shifted.

Switched lives.

Switched lives with someone else.

Someone else I didn't know about.

Switched lives with a stranger.

A stranger, that now lives inside me.

A stranger, that made me its slave.

A stranger, who I couldn't understand.

To this day, I still can't understand,

can't believe,

can't know who lives inside me.

Who settled inside my soul, inside me body.

I remember, when I used to think myself as a princess.

When each day I called myself beautiful.

When I would let everyone see who I was.

When I would walk with pride.

When I would face each challenge.

When I would be ME.

Then life happened. I

Look in the mirror, call myself Ugly.

Day after day, I hid myself.

I was not proud about my looks.

I saw every little flaw now.

I was afraid to let people see those flaws.

To this day, I still loathe my looks.

I used to hate make-up,

but now I use it almost everyday, I

cover myself in different colors.

I remember the girl I used to be.

The girl that would have regrets.

The girl that made excuses for life.

Then I enclosed myself in writing.

Only finding my peace there.

Only loving myself when I am in my little writing world.

There was a little boy, that let go of his mother’s hand and wandered off.

But then He finds her,

but finds her only after crying about losing her, being afraid that she will leave him in that place, surrounded by people he didn't know.

I was that little boy.

Getting lost, crying, being scared.

But then finding myself again.

Finding myself through writing.

To this day, I still write.

In fact I am writing this right now.

I am writing and liking who I have become.

To this day, I guess I am still ME.

© 2015 justdandy

Author's Note

Something I wrote.
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You've written a great poem .... Your feelings are really deep and I loved how you compared the old times with your present situation towards the end of the poem ...! Loved it ! Keep going

Posted 8 Years Ago

8 Years Ago

Thank you!!!

Bear

The transition between your two selfs is a nice idea, the struggle between who you were and who you became. I am not sure if this is what you had in mind since you don't mention it, but I this sounds like what occurs with puberty in many people and I think it is a great representation. Bravo!