My Life As My PastA Poem by maddy
How much longer must I be afraid of this life?
Scars remain embedded deep within my soul,
My heart paralyzed from those days long ago.
Here I lie in misery pondering my ideal life,
Wondering what it would be like to be normal,
Or to feel real love from those surrounding me,
But then I snap back to reality where I really lie,
My mind always trapped in the past life,
Where I witnessed hatred from my father,
And disloyalty from my biological mother.
Five children under one roof all on the same boat,
No one to trust and no where to run when scared,
Feeding off of one another’s support to survive,
But sometimes that wasn’t enough to keep safe,
From the wrath that crept upon that man,
In which we were suppose to call “daddy”.
Things started to change when they split,
A sudden change of heart when she left,
Leaving all her children without warning,
Not even a letter to say goodbye.
But his love didn’t keep us warm for very long,
The fatherly behaviors started to fade slowly,
It was gone the minute she walked in the door,
Suddenly fear wrapped its arms around all of us,
For the misery was clear in the faces of her two children.
Now seven children lived in pain in one home,
Things now worse than they have ever been,
For two evils collided in each others arms,
Sharing the same cruelty towards their children,
Only predictions of a better future kept us going,
But how much longer could we have taken the pain?
So, how will our futures end up?
Will we always live in the same fear?
Will we be able to love and be loved?
Or is fear all we will ever know?
© 2011 maddy
Added on August 29, 2011
Last Updated on August 29, 2011
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