Suicidal

This hurts so bad I want to cry

The pain of sadness growing inside

I feel that I was forgot and left behind

I feel it in my heart and mind

I sit here in darkness no light I can tell

Loss and regret I feel that as well

Cold and tired alone in this hell

No life left an empty shell

Broken tears fall and roll down my face

My hart has vanished despair in its place

Broken tears fall throughout time and space

I bow my head in shame and disgrace

I am lost and alone nobody around

Screaming so loud but there is no sound

Locked in myself tied up and bound

Closed up inside where I’ll never be found

Everyone around me changed but I stayed the same

Nobody is here nobody else to blame

I scream out for you I called out your name

But no one came I will die with this shame

Broken tears fall and roll down my face

My heart has vanished despair in its place

Broken tears fall through out time and space

I bow my head in shame and disgrace

I will die tonight but nobody knows

Everything has stopped time has froze

My spirit is leaving my time comes to a close

I just want you to know this is what I choose

Author's Note

This isn't about Suicide its about dying inside. I name things weird :)
Also, i wrote it 10 years ago.

Reviews

[Adam Adams]

to me, it's not just a poetry, but a well flourished song that's well written in words. some of my many fav. lines from the post are:

"I sit here in darkness no light I can tell
Loss and regret I feel that as well... "

sometimes... when we're all alone, and lost and pretty much confused within, we oft. embrace darkness even in being enlighten by lights, & start doing regrets on things we done in past, cos... it's regret that... may cause "suicidal" thoughts. quite a very deep imagery here.

"Everyone around me changed but I stayed the same
Nobody is here nobody else to blame... "

so beautiful and so realistic these lines are. such lines make me consider this poetry certainly one of my fav. for sure. excellent flow. very strong grip at words. you get yourself licked into captivating words!

[A. Amos]

i felt the depth of your pain, you penned very nice

[Chris]

Would you write this one - as it stands - today? The same word choice, apparent emotional outlook? COULD you write this one from scratch - today?

[Lucifer Jones]

A very good read. ESPECIALLY knowing the timeframe it was penned. It paints the picture so very well for the reader. And dying inside most likely feelss a bit like suicide... or at least a clear path to that answer for our problems. Wonderful piece.

[Darkgirl]

Thank you so much :))

[Author Unknown]

This is a splendid write Ms Darkgirl. Considering the time that you have penned it. I could not even conceived such thoughts expressed in a most rhythmic way...Thanks for sharing ...
Some typographical error though no bog deal at all ..." I feel it in my hart ( heart ) and mind "
Its several of them here ...

[Darkgirl]

I shall fix that. Most of my stuff on here was originally penned between 3 and 10 years back. most of which are closer to the 10. I have been spending more time with stories as opposed to poetry. However I have a few poems I am currently working on and intend to post when I feel they can be read by others :) Thank you for reviewing them, I appreciate it very much.