Overdose

Overdose

A Story by Decidious wind
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This is about my addiction to writing and literature it's unreal!

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There’s nothing artistic or creative here. If you’re looking for that sort of bullshit then I suggest that you kindly stop reading. I am not creative. I am simply addicted to writing. Even when I can’t find inspiration, or a topic of discussion to discuss I’ll continue to punch holes on my piece of paper.

Writing is a drug that I’m addicted to. I’m addicted. There’s no way to stop, I’ve drowned to deep until I could no longer see the surface. That’s how writing has been for me, ever since day one. Although I go through phases where I tell myself that it’s over and I’m never gonna go back to this again…. the light shines on a different part of me and I go back to writing.

The pain of therapy and rehabilitation, obviously, doesn’t stop me. For, eventually, I’ll be tempted to devour a dose of that addictive drug again. And that gradually happens. The everlasting lust for an imaginary drug rips my soul apart!

Writing is ‘claimed’ to be a way of expressing yourself, a manner in which we exert the negative forces within. Lies! Everything you’ve been told about writing is a lie. I hate how writing exposes my true nature. I hate that no matter how hard I try to build up the personality that I’ve always wanted to exhibit to the world, I end up telling the truth through writing. Never, underestimate the power of pen and paper. Those are deadly weapons.

I’m in a state that no rehab or therapy can cure. I am in an overdose. Rehab is where the addicted go to, to stop being addicted. Where do artists go? Van Gogh is a great example. The artistic world, a world beyond our horizons which is only visible by dreamers, had grieved him. Until he committed suicide. Although, he was admitted to an asylum. Such facilities are of no use to those who have entered the world of artists.

Art is wonderful. Art is beautiful. Art is scary. I’ve had more doses than a normal human being should have. And now…my days are numbered.

© 2017 Decidious wind



Author's Note

Decidious wind
I am so sorry That I've stopped writing. There were some problems in my country so I needed to be there for my family and friends.

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Exposing one's true self should be liberating and empowering. I have no problem admitting to all my petty sins and grave errors as the blank page acts as my confessor and putting it out there is my absolution.
It's a well known fact that creative geniuses have always been mistaken for madmen. You are in good company, with some of the best "therapists" in the world, some that money can't buy. Write, write, then by God, write some more. We know you already by the short piece you wrote here - you exposed more of your soul than most of us get from face-to-face contact with people we see every day, and we do not spurn you, or deny you, but embrace you and your addiction. Go around the corner of your "addiction" and look at it from a different angle: it becomes your blessing and God-given talent. Perspective.
I don't know where you are, but I hope you and yours are safe and well. If not, you have over 3,000 members on this site to call on - just name it. Who else can say their group therapy sessions boasts of that many people? Write when you can, and when you can safely. We are here.

Posted 1 Week Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Decidious wind

1 Week Ago

Thank you very much I deeply appreciate how you are willing to be there for me when you know nothing.. read more
Carol Cashes

1 Week Ago

*snort* Just wait till you know me, "kind" ain't a word many use for me, but I am compassionate to .. read more



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Exposing one's true self should be liberating and empowering. I have no problem admitting to all my petty sins and grave errors as the blank page acts as my confessor and putting it out there is my absolution.
It's a well known fact that creative geniuses have always been mistaken for madmen. You are in good company, with some of the best "therapists" in the world, some that money can't buy. Write, write, then by God, write some more. We know you already by the short piece you wrote here - you exposed more of your soul than most of us get from face-to-face contact with people we see every day, and we do not spurn you, or deny you, but embrace you and your addiction. Go around the corner of your "addiction" and look at it from a different angle: it becomes your blessing and God-given talent. Perspective.
I don't know where you are, but I hope you and yours are safe and well. If not, you have over 3,000 members on this site to call on - just name it. Who else can say their group therapy sessions boasts of that many people? Write when you can, and when you can safely. We are here.

Posted 1 Week Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Decidious wind

1 Week Ago

Thank you very much I deeply appreciate how you are willing to be there for me when you know nothing.. read more
Carol Cashes

1 Week Ago

*snort* Just wait till you know me, "kind" ain't a word many use for me, but I am compassionate to .. read more
I have used writing as a healing tool for 45 years.
"Writing is ‘claimed’ to be a way of expressing yourself, a manner in which we exert the negative forces within. Lies! Everything you’ve been told about writing is a lie. I hate how writing exposes my true nature. I hate that no matter how hard I try to build up the personality that I’ve always wanted to exhibit to the world, I end up telling the truth through writing. Never, underestimate the power of pen and paper. Those are deadly weapons."
I liked and I agree with the above lines. Some places I want forgotten and when I write. Rebirth old pain and suffering. You are right. Art can be scary. Thank you dear friend for sharing your word and thoughts.
Coyote


Posted 1 Week Ago


Bah... This... This... This was stunningly real... Like, it hurt to read a bit, but the good kind of pain... I think... Where do we go... Rehab for artists... Numbered days, maybe, but pray it does not come till the pain is gray... Rawly penned...

Posted 3 Months Ago


Decidious wind

3 Months Ago

Thank you! I feel like you did actually cry. Calm down it's just imagination. Lol thanks for your re.. read more
Wow, this was so amazing and relatable!! writing makes me transcends me to a completely different world and i am addicted to it. Amazing read!

Posted 4 Months Ago


i too am addicted to writing ...
i have been an artist sculptor potter writer and poet for more than 40 of my 65 years
i am proud of what i am and what i do
not many have the opportunity to give into their deepest artistic desires
i have however taught myself to have patience and to sometimes put my art on the shelf and take some deep breaths
and yes, i exhibit my inner being with each and every piece i construct or create

Posted 4 Months Ago


I can relate to this...I too am addicted, have serious lulls but always go back to it - I enjoyed reading this - I hope things have improved for you now - thanks for sharing :)

Posted 4 Months Ago


Decidious wind

4 Months Ago

Thank you. The bigger problem, and i think you feel the same way, is not the addiction. But the exhi.. read more
KT-B

4 Months Ago

Yes I agree - honesty always comes out in writing - I find it impossible for it not too -:)

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I am a writer A photographer And an artist. I've been writing ever since I was 9 years old. My dream is that my writing reaches someone's heart. Writing is a passion, not a hobby. I am also .. more..

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