Sometimes I feel

Sometimes I feel

A Poem by Absentee Reality Check

Sometimes I feel as fragile as a crystal glass, yet nowhere near as clear and pure.

It feels sometimes as though the past is carved indelibly,
harsh and red, into my flesh.
As though it drips freshly inked on my skin
and faded bruises flash caution-sign blatant upon my body
screaming flaws that have been tentatively 
shrouded in the illusion of normalcy.
Time-padded scars sit just under the surface and
rage in agony at a glancing blow by the inadvertent comments
dialing into the just-then memories leaving me
as raw as the days after
when antiseptic scents and sterile rooms
occupied the full continuum of time,
when my mind still grasped to halt the replay
of garish-colored pain daubed harshly with betrayal.
It feels sometimes that I am badly-tempered steel
fiercely strong and terribly brittle,
that I look straight at my mirror self and 
see a patchwork of imperfections
held together by the barest thread of 
the false strength of a mirage,
that actions cut so deeply years later that they leave 
me flayed open.
It feels sometimes that I walk still wounded,
that friendship can only patch over some defects
butleaves some laying barefaced on my fresh glossy surface,
that I will never be whole again
only a partially re-assembled doll with a painted on smile.

© 2012 Absentee Reality Check

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I agree with coyote that everyone goes through pain in their lives but not every pain is going to leave you feeling unworthy and impure. I can really relate to the emotions which you manage to put across so beautifully in your words. Great poem.

Posted 6 Years Ago

Life make us stronger. We have scars to teach us we can survive great pain. Few have a easy life. I believe the pain and the scars make us stronger and wiser. I like this poem. Open up many question only answered by living and taking chances. Thank you for the outstanding poem.

Posted 6 Years Ago

It's definitely no surprise that you placed multiple times in my contest if you possess this kind of written ability! I could read your writing every day and never get sick of it. I'm also sure I'd discover something new each time. This needs so many more reviews than just me! Thank you for entering this in my contest. It's truly lovely. :)

Posted 6 Years Ago

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