Blooming Soul

Blooming Soul

A Poem by Mika =^-^=

For so many years I walked down a broken path,
a path that led me to believe in wishful thinking,
just when it felt like my heart was healing
all my wounds opened up and kept on bleeding.

Every time I saw my reflection, I wondered to myself,
"who are you trying to fool, yourself or everyone else?"
the longer I kept wondering, confusion compelled my mind,
if I stayed in this nightmare my heart will only break
and the tears I held back for so long, they'll begin to shed.

All these years I thought I left my past behind,
but the ache in my heart told me otherwise,
each day that went by,
I felt the chains from my pain drag me down
reminding me I'm still the same, as I've always been,
soon I will learn to let go,
because at the end of it all, I'm just hurting myself.

I've always thought I could fight my demons on my own
soon to learn I was very wrong,
no matter which corner I've turned to escape,
I was always dragged back to the same old place
feeling pressure on my chest, I can't take another breath.

The more I fought to find my way back
left me in a place filled of broken hopes and dreams,
the longer I've tried to search for a light
tear streamed down, and made me realize,
I yearn for a place where I can feel the warmth of the sun 
and find my way to true happiness and my true self.
 
All these years, I gave my time, and even my breath
thinking if I put a smile on someone 's face
all my pain and darkness will fade away,
but there was one person I'll always forget,
can you guess?  I always forget about myself.

All of my life, I felt lost and broken
I cried in silence and left some words unspoken
twenty-five years has come and gone, losing my sense of hope
but then I realize I've got to open up,
and cry out for help,
now I understand is okay to feel pain,
now that I understand, 
my heart will mend,
and now that I understand,
I will fight to feel like myself.

© 2018 Mika =^-^=


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Added on October 3, 2018
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Mika =^-^=
Mika =^-^=

San Diego , CA



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