Myself to Blame

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Myself To Blame

 

Wasted time and wasted words

Said I wasn't going to try for anything

Not get my hopes up I said,

Seems when I do I get shut down

So I remain in the shadows with my feelings

Though you can tell by body language

Thinking things could be different

I do so much for you that goes unnoticed

Sitting trying to talk myself out of the feelings

I can't seem to get rid of

I asked God for signs of when I should give up

Maybe that's why He showed me all these guys

To give me a chance to move on

But stupid me kept falling for your crap

Now you tell me that you don't feel the same

I can't even use that excuse, I felt it

But then I pretended to feel something else

I thought we were connecting again

Silly me, why do I keep sinking back?

Stubborn as I can be to not admit the downfall

If this relationship is not to be

Then why did you still say you loved me?

Why did you do the things you did?

I don't understand, every time we are together

Do you honestly not feel a thing?

Can you look me in the face and say

You do not mean the things you say

It pisses me off but then again

I can only blame myself

Foolishness I put myself through

Though I say all of this out of anger

I cannot deny that I still feel the same

As I've always felt the day we started dating

You can't help who you fall in love with

Author's Note

Not about current relationship. Honest comments, please and thank you.