Satan's Puppet

I wish I could bring myself to like her.
But I can't.
I simply can't.
As she sits beside me in class,
My insides burn.
They burn!
She has everything I've ever wanted.
I'm slowly being consumed!
Consumed by hatred.
Consumed by jealousy,
Consumed by the person I should never be.
The Devil might as well be inside of me.
I break, I crush the Commandments.
I lie when I say, "I love you."
I covet, I envy her qualities.
I cannot obey my Father;
He wants me to be forever kind,

But I can't.
I simply can't.
Lord, help me.
Destroy me.
I cannot be.
Or strengthen me.
For this pain, this jealousy, is a rock that rolls down a hill.
It rolls farther and farther each day.
It aims to hurt me every day.
Give me strength to survive.
Kill me or allow me to be alive.
Do not let me be
Satan's Puppet.
Sin will suffocate me, blind me,
Don't You see?

Author's Note

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