Old s**t: when 2011 was relevant

great
this is absolutely perfect
blast from the past comes back
right on time
so one evening of not being wrapped in your arms
and your heart sails out to sea again
f**k this s**t
I'm so tired of caring about you
when you don't even have the courtesy to care about me
after all the money, and love, and kisses and hugs
I've spent on you
you do this to me?
I'm a stupid girl
for being with you
and staying with you
it sickens me that someone can try so hard for somebody
and feel completely worthless
you make me feel like that
you use me
and you don't even care
you don't even care.
you hurt me
you know you hurt me
you know i love you
you see that i see
you know that i know
and still i stay
and you let me
but it just goes back
to people in general.
you can only depend on yourself to save you
nobody else
as soon as you depend on someone else
you've given up your rights of independence
you fall into the black and white hole
of leaning on another shoulder
what happens when that shoulder collapses?
you fall
tumble down into nothing.
only to have a choice
to pull yourself back up
or stay
dwelling
in the below.
most of the time
i stay and dwell
but i need some upper body strength
time for me to pull myself out of this
get stronger
by getting rid of you
f**k you
f**k you
f**k you very very much
cheating b*****d.