It's All Just a Dream

Another TouyaYukina tragedy fic. This one uses the song "Just a Dream" by Carrie Underwood. DISCLAIMER: I don't own YYH, nor do I own "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood.

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something barrowed, something blue

 

It's our wedding day, and that’s supposed to be happy, right? The bride is supposed to be overjoyed with tears flowing down her cheeks, the groom with a smile directed at the beauty walking down the aisle. Isn’t that how human weddings are supposed to be? Then why does this feel so wrong?

 

And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

 

The large doors open and I pull down the veil. I try to force back my tears, but it doesn’t work. The tiny, valuable gems fall to the floor with a tak as I walk. As I stand there, in front of the place where my love now rests, the flowers I’ve brought fall from my hands. I begin trembling as I fight back my sobs.

 

Baby why'd you leave me?
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

 

Why did this have to happen? Why did he have to die? More of the precious hiruseki stones fall to the floor around me. I can tell my friends are giving me concerned looks. I feel as if I’m in a daze, that this is merely a horrible dream and I’ll wake up to see Touya sound asleep next to me.

 

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard

 

Koenma starts the ceremony. A prayer is said, but the only thing I pray for is for this to be false. This has to be a dream. It just has to. Touya’s not dead. He’s lying right next to me right now and we’re both just asleep.

 

Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

 

Koenma hands me the necklace I had given Touya before he left on that case, the one he died on. No! He’s not dead. But… If he’s still alive, then why does this hurt so much? I take the necklace and stare at the pendant. It is one of the stones I cried out of joy when he and I had decided to be married. I hold it close to my chest as more tears flow from my eyes. They shoot off guns at the end of the ceremony. The last feels as if it pierced my heart.

 

Baby why'd you leave me?
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

 

I stand up and walk to where Touya now lies. I hit my knees, dozens of hiruseki stones falling to the ground beneath me.

 

“Why… Why,” I ask.

 

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me?
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

 

“He wouldn’t want you to be crying like this,” Hiei says while walking up next to me.

 

I don’t answer him. I can’t. My voice won’t form anything but sobs.

 

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

 

“He’s gone, Yukina. There’s nothing you can do about it,” Hiei continues.

 

He doesn’t sound as harsh as he would if I was someone else. I wonder if he’s sad about Touya’s death too.

 

“No… It’s just a dream,” I answer, wiping the tears from my eyes.