psychopath

(sometimes i see you

and the image bursts into my head:

me taking a hammer to your skull.)

 

you are not a demon

and i am not a psychopath

(right)

you are without a face

and yet i tear at your dream-self

simply to watch it bleed

and it does--'candy' red 

no other shade would do

 

(you walk in front of the stairs

and my hands shove out

your head hits every step on the way down.

i warned you)

 

(as we walk in clear summer air

i throw you to the ground,

grab you by the neck,

and bash your head in the sidewalk

over and over.)

 

you are not a demon

and i am not a psychopath

you bleed cherry red

smile and ask how my day went

 

(i take the steak knife from the block in the kitchen

and slit your throat from behind

while you watch tv on the couch)

 

(in the pool you splash and laugh

i push you under and stand on you

and feel you thrash)

 

you are not a demon

and i am not a psychopath

you are without a face

but i tear at your dream-self

simply to watch it bleed

(all the colors of the rainbow)

 

(i take that beer bottle from your hand

and smash it across your face

dragging crystal-glass in arcane shapes

for some very interesting scars)

 

(i pour that tank of gasoline

on your sleeping form and your tangled sheets

light a match

(burn in hell))

 

you are not a demon

and i am not a psychopath

and your dead selves pile up in my memories.

 

(are you a demon?

i can't remember anymore.)

 

(i fingerpaint candy red faces on the walls

and i laugh.)

 

you are not a demon

and i am not a psychopath

      i am not a psychopath

      i am not a psychopath

Author's Note

sometimes i examine the random thoughts i have and think i need to be murdered for the good of the rest of the world.

Reviews

[ashley]

"simply to watch it bleed
and it does--'candy' red
no other shade would do"

I love this, it's fantastic. Bitterly supressed rage mixed with just the right amount of sarcasm... It's really a powerful poem. Great job expressing yourself.

[Lyzzy Redd]

This gave me chills. It's extremely well-written. I know it's written for you personally, but you also really get a good grasp on just the human psyche in general. Well done, as always.