I Think I've found God

you have no idea how much I love you

I touched myself under the red neon lights
and I think I found God at 2 AM
in between my sheets.
but I've been busy spreading love too thin
with my legs raised into the pale afternoon sky
you took me higher than ever,
yet still my heart breaks at the idea of your breath getting further from my lungs
you play in my mind like a broken record-
all the ways that you "complete me"
i am completely me
I am completely empty

the lights get dimmer by the second at some old, dusty gas station
and the flicker reminds us of a time where the grayness under our eyes was just gold covered in dust...
hidden behind the mirror
I found the truth encripted
between words
stuttering like my blood flow up and down stream.

I know it's been hard to accept that ashes won't ever be flames again.
but I've got a lighter in my front pocket and I carry it wherever I go
just in case you get cold enough to let me set fire to your lungs again. 

I am blinded by the sun
as the days turn to weeks,
the weeks into months.
I can't stop this rotation-
i watch as your heart slowly beats out of town
suitcases filled with memories
better kept in dusty boxes.
bruises find their way up my thighs to remind me of where your hands used to be.

i inject the stars into my arm
and wait for reality to catch up to my fingertips,
but the further I get,
the harder it is to see the truth.

I guess it's just easier to live in a world outside of your own

I think I've found my distraction-

I think I've found God.

Reviews

[Unforgiven Guy]

"I found the truth incripted" ... Encrypted?

Jesus Christ (no pun intended), lots of complex emotions are scraping and clawing their way across this poem in zig-zags, deep enough to bring blood in some places; as usual it's striking to witness the thought you put into these.

(Especially about keeping the lighter in your front pocket in case he gets cold enough to let you set fire to his lung again... There's an entire discussion to be had right there, and don't start without me).

Some of your best, in my opinion.

[Gabby Nieves]

lol always catching my spelling errors, yes you're right I'll fix it thank you.

[Gabby Nieves]

and thank you, I haven't had a real review in a while. I miss it lol

[Unforgiven Guy]

And I've missed giving them. :)

[PoeticSorcery]

well that was certainly descriptive lol. at least one of us has found god :P